[not checked sorry for any misspelling] billies pov [2 months later]
i haven't talked or seen brandon at all for 2 months. he's been on tour and so have i. we stopped talking and it kinda hurt like my heart was missing something.
all i know is he has a break today and is heading back to LA and i have a show today at LA i didn't invite anyone cause i mean what's the point i've been off social media for a while and my fans started to get worried thinking i'm falling back into depression. i think not seeing or talking to brandon is making me depressed.
it was time for the meet and greet and i can hear young girls screaming and crying already. i saw them and put my hands out and they all ran for a hug. i can hear them all crying and saying sweet things. this is the best part of being famous
i started meeting every by time and they can all see i wasn't okay
one girl came up to me and she hugged me so tight and she grabbed my face and said "billie can you do me a favor?" "of course love!" i said faking a smile "don't come back on social media until you're mentally and physically okay i need you to be okay. i don't care how long it takes i can tell you're not okay i don't want social media to pressure you more than what's going on in your life" she said giving me a smile
i honestly felt like crying thinking how much they care about me
"i love you" i said hugging her again
i was performing and it was amazing they realized i haven't gone super hard during these last few shows i stopped jumping as much i made them sing almost everything of "i love you" because if i would sing it all i would cry thinking of brandon
everything was going amazing then "i love you" started playing i knew i was gonna cry today i can just feel it.
"it's not true tell me i've been lied to crying isn't like you" i said singing and my fans singing along i smiled at the girl who told me to be okay who was crying and singing her lungs out to "i love you"
as i was singing i looked up at the top and i saw him.
que.
he was there. he didn't tell me he was watching me sing i love you
"we fall apart as it gets dark im in your arm in central par-" i saw him in such pain while giving me a weak smile and i couldn't handle it anymore. i broke down
"but i don't want to but i love you" i said looking at que my eyes were red filled with tears
when the song was over my eyes were still red and watery
"thank you guys so much i'm nothing without you all i love you" i said leaving the stage
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[1 day later]
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liked by @leanin @gawaking @mtvsevenamp and 6,279,278 more billieeilish- thank you so much for all the kind words i gotten yesterday love you all. i'm so so thankful for you all. just got a little emotional yesterday love you all
