My Summer Love (ON HOLD)

Chapter 23: True Happiness

Finally our videos came on and I was excited to see what it looked like all together. My heart shattered knowing that camp was over and I had to leave this place all over again.

I had to leave Harry.

Would we stay together? Perhaps take a break?

If you've ever watched friends. You know that being on a break never works.

My thoughts had taken over to the point where Harry was shaking me asking if I was alright.

I laughed and nodded holding his hand.

All the videos played and by the end some parents were crying, some laughing. It was nice to have been here another year.

I wonder what will happen next time around.

Where will we be?

Harry could be out exploring the world while I'm stuck at home with my parents.

I know that one day Harry will have an amazing future. A wife, a family. Something deep down makes me feel like he could be famous. His voice is perfect and there will be a day, after a long career where he will sing to his wife. When his child cries, he will sing a lullaby, anything for his precious child.

What were the chances of me being that girl?

When I can call Harry mine, not just for a teen relationship but forever. Maybe one day have a little girl or boy calling me mummy. Where I could attend to their every need. Look after them, hold them. Carry a life within me. Its more thrilling than it sounds.

Being able to create and hold a life for nine months is beyond believable. Something I've always wanted, a family. Maybe a boy and my husband can teach him how to kick a football and I can take my daughter to ballet and go out shopping. To live in a big house with a white picket fence and maybe a dog or a cat.

All these things are what i've always wanted, but the question is. Will I ever get that? Will I ever have the privilege to hold a child in my arms and call them mine. To walk down the aisle in a perfect white dress with the man of my dreams waiting for me at the end. My dad walking with me on my big day while my mother cries in the first row of seats.

Everything so perfect.

I was torn away from my thoughts when I felt a pair of warm lips press against my cheek. I smile and looked at Harry, resting my head on his shoulder inhaling his musky cologne.

This was perfect. A place I wish I could pause, just to be here in his arms forever. 

Soon enough the video began and the singing of my horrid voice began. I was afraid, people were looking around, trying to find the girls in the video. When they found us they just stared, then smiled politely and continued watching the video. 

"You sound amazing. Don't worry" Harry smiled making me feel better. You would never think five simple words would make my worries go away, but they did. 

Partially because it came from Harry, but it was also exactly what I needed. Giving me hope that I wouldn't embarrass myself in front of my family and this crowd of strangers. 

People cheered, whistling, clapping once the short clip was finished. My heart fluttered, I wasn't expecting such an applause or reaction to our videos. 

Every video played through, an eruption of laughter, clapping and cheering echoed through the hall. The director of the camp walked onto the stage. 

She introduced herself, and then explained what was going to happen for the rest of the night. 

"Our three judges, John, Natalie and Christina" She said as they all stood up, bowing, waving, smiling.

Most people screamed out of excitement, I personally laughed. Laughed at everyone's reactions, they are just people. Famous or not. They are just like everyone else only there talents have been found and show to the world. Others aren't so lucky, some people with just as much talent, only hidden because they haven't been found yet, haven't been discovered. 

Once everyone sat back down and the noise level had dropped enough so that the director could speak. 

"The judges will talk, and vote their opinion. There will only be one winner from a group as we are very limited to competitors. They will receive a one year recording contract where they will be able to write their own music and have it recorded. They have the choice of publishing or with holding their work from the media" The director pronounced. Everyone cheered, some screaming in excitement while others just clapped. 

Someone had prepared a mix of different songs that played quietly while everyone talked. 

Not long after the judges held out a sheet of paper. It was something small, yet it held the future of some of us in this very room. 

Soft piano music played, as if everything were in slow motion. The director of the camp opened the folded sheet of paper. After what felt like a year, she read the name to herself, smiling with joy. She looked up, her eyes full of light and her smile just grew bigger and bigger as the time passed.

"The winner is" ... She said as my heart race picked up. I wanted this so bad, but other people deserved it too. 

Just like Harry. 

He deserved this. He deserved an unlimited amount of joy and happiness. 

Maybe this would make him happy... 

Or maybe it could be me...

I could be the one that makes him happy, happier than anything else in the world, but how long would that truly last?