I could tell u a story... A story of chance... A story of romance... but what are those stories worth if you didn't see the pain that taking a chance on love made... or the emotion called such has caused. Whether it's love or infatuation, its turned the lives of many upside down. Often causing the destruction of souls of men (and women). Turning even the purest people into even the heinous of souls.
Believe me I know because this is my story. This is my heart confession of every sin I have committed and some of those that have been committed against me. So relax, clear your mind and pay attention because this all is going to go fast. So fast to when you think your head spins and hurts and you breath is taken away just like that very day when I saw her. Yes, her. As I gazed toward her presence and admired her from afar she became my Eve and me her Adam. It was the stuff you only see in movies and dreams. It was if time and space had frozen to strike my heart with this feeling that was all to unfamiliar with me.
Hmm... I thought to myself play it cool. I'm Trey Wilks, Mr. Stewart-Burke. I run this school. Superstar track player, super smart, I'm preparing to be a Rhodes Scholar, extra active in my school, and got mad respect for and from everyone. Why I'm I tripping over this one girl? When I have so many ready and willing to give anything and everything to be with me. She looks like she's ready for this mack but not at the same. As she started walking toward us, I felt this hold over me and for the first time in my life I was completely speechless. Then she spoke.
It was like angels talking painful hurting my ears but the I couldn't stop listening. Then my homeboy Kyle gets up, hugs her and I'm like WHAT THE FUCK?!?!.. this nigga all up on my shawty... wait she ain't mine she don't even know my name. "Trey !!! " she says. Then I snap back into reality. The fact she knows my name makes me feel a little good but I feel bad I don't know her's . I wanted to ask so bad but you know how most females can be. If you so playa, playa to even remember my name get the fuck on then...You know all that bullshit. So we continue to converse then it hits me I love this chick. Not just from this current experience but I fell in love with her long before I knew what love was. She was my first boo, my childhood best friend Lena.
Lena was that chick that you were in love with but didn't know why. I mean she was beautiful. But that beauty didn't matter because it was her soul that I was in love with. I know its crazy to fall in love as a toddler but those are the things that you just know. Their presence makes you feel indescribable. When they're near your aura just glows, then your smiling for no apparent reason other than their existence in your life. Then they leave and you learn how to deal without them. Never really getting over them nor realizing until the moment when they step back into your life. Then you're like me now, dazed and confused with no idea what move to make next.
"Come on Trey. Snap back... this look aint cool at all dawg." I say to myself. Next thing I know I'm in Chemistry class about to damn near blow up the school when my partner catches me. "Trey , what the hell are you doing? Mix that shit and you gone blow up half the city." She said. I replied, " My bad, I'm sorry, I don't know where my mind is." Then our teacher cuts in. " Well, Mr. Wilkes, maybe your mind will be in detention. Don't worry. If you complete this assignment correctly and its correct in the morning I won't put it on your record." Turns to class. "The rest of you are dismissed have a great day. You, two prepare to start over from."
As everyone else left class, I gazed out the window, hoping to see Lena before she left campus. After enough wishful thinking and I got what I wanted and more. I looked up only to see her getting in the car with a bunch of random niggas. Some I knew, some I didn't. My thoughts were going from extreme to extreme distracting from my important pressing goal, my chemistry work. But I couldn't focus. I started to feel anger, jealously, and rage all at the same time only to be broken by this weird but good feeling. My partner had started rubbing on my leg. Apparently searching for my dick. I quickly snap out of my trance.
