"It's all in your head."
The words that race through my head. The horrible thing everyone I loves tells me. How can I ever tell them in a way that they don't think is crazy??
I just know that somewhere out there is my future killer. I know what God is telling me. God is telling me that someone is going to kill me and he is telling me that to protect me from said killer.
I don't know why god would tell me. I'm magical I guess. I don't know who is going to kill me and that's the hardest part about everything. I feel as though i can trust no one. What if I am my own future murderer?
Maybe God is warning me against the people watching me. God tells me things through my phone. He sends me drawings of scary things on my instagram. I don't know why he would do this knowing that it triggers me.
My little sister hates that she can't watch scary movies due to me getting triggered. She hates me anyways but that probably feeds into it.
Everyone hates me cause I do bad things and I don't realise what I'm doing is bad until I'm in trouble. Only God loves me.
"It's all in your head."
If it was all in my head how did I see, with my own two eyes, people haunting me. How did I see demons???
Chemical imbalance my ass. God chose me. He's trying to let me save myself.
My number one wish is that someone would believe me. I know no one does cause if they did there would be guards around my house to protect me but no.
Someone would help me but no. No one wants to help me cause I'm not important enough to protect. If only I had someone that loved me. Everyone I think loves me leaves me.
Sometimes I wish god didn't warn me so I could just die.
