I gotta be honest bout something..
I really hate what I am right now.. I think I can say it's depression.
Because right now I'm not emotionally happy anymore.. I'm getting more sad everyday.. It's getting worst..
I mean I still laugh every now and then but it doesn't last that long till sadness hit me again.
Before meeting my current partner, I was a happy bean I must say. Everything is fine and well. After that.. Things have turned.. A major turned..
It's not their fault to be say .. It's influence..
At first I really thought maybe Wattpad can be a happy place for me.. To just read.. Makes me calm.. But now.. I'm reading less.. And wanting to chat more.. It's not that bad because chatting is fine.. Too bad toxic people exist.
If I offend you I'm sorry.
And now if I'm like don't talk.. It will be so weird for me..
If the notifs are dried... It's so weird now.. Why is that? Because I'm used to it now.. Getting notifs..
And I almost lose a great friend. Luckily we made up. That great friend mean so much to me. But I can see that both of us changed too..
Right now I really want to turn back the time when I will be happy to just read and write and only chat to some people.
It's just too much drama you know?
Sadness everywhere..
Why is life so hard.. Especially online..
I just want my happiness back.. Is that too much to ask?
It's scary how something so small can change someone so easily..
I want the old me back.. I want to be happy again and not worry bout so many things..
Is that still too much to ask?
I really want to stop being sad and cry a lot. That's just not me.. At all..
The happiness that is once inside me is gone..
I feel like wattpad is my second life now.. I'm checking it too much.. And worrying too much.
Is this good or bad?
I really can't say.
I realized Wattpad makes me discover more things.. The bad and the good.
Which is why I'm different now..
I dunno if that is good or bad..maybe both.
Positive Mental Attitude ~Jacksepticeye
I really want to achieve that again. And be happy once again.
Can I do it? Only time will tell.
Because I don't like this me right now.
I hate it.. A lot..
Don't be like me :)
P. M. A :3
L. M. J out :)
