Drowning underwater but suffocating on land

Prologue

I'm still plagued by that night.

I still remember the wind in my hair,  freezing everything around me but yet I was warm. I can still taste the salt in the air as I breathed it in. And the bitterness of the water that splashed over the cliff and upon my face.

But I can't remember why I was there. I mean I remember that I was there to jump into the water to stop my suffering, all the pain, all the anger and to stop me from reliving my nightmares.

But I don't remember why I was there on that night, or that specific month. I just knew it needed to be then. It was time, to let go.

And I jumped. My feet hit the water first still protected by my favourite shoes, but they didn't stop the rush of coldness that clawed at my skin, or the nasty bites of the jagged rocks that laid beneath me.

I didn't care though, I lavished in the pain it was better then lying to my family and my self. I was supposed to always be fine. I never was but in this moment for the first time I wasn't lying and it was good.

I was being dragged against the current losing a fight that I didn't intend to win and it was amazing. To lose control and just relax.

I was going to die but I was okay about it because I had accomplish something I set out to do.

I started to lose consciousness as I drifted along the narrow sea cannel out to where I came from the sea. I was born on a ship that crashed and brought me here
how ironic.

These were going to be my final moments. Good bye cruel world.

But before I could fully blackout arms wrapped around me and gently brought me to the shore.

I guessed it wasn't the end of my time not just yet.

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