Anger Issues

chapter 1

Ejiskqjdhwiwmiwmxiakdvsjixnwuwjsusd ughhh. My mind is clearly a mess. Today is the first day of summer break. My name is Sommer. I'm 16. My parents are the owners of a huge desiigner company. So....I'm pretty much rich I guess you could say....I don't like having money because that means that i have to be on top all the time. By that I mean I can never just go do what I want. I can't just wear a hoodie and leggings. I have to wear my family's clothes. They are all extremely fancy and I don't like that at all. I really would love to skate, but I can't do that because paparazzi. Everyone knows me. In all of Los Angeles, California. I.hate.it. my neighbors are pretty cool tho, I'm about to start babysitting a little girl named Isla. She is so cute.
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        I woke up and took a shower and did my normal morning routine. I got dressed and took an uber to starbucks. I got a iced almond milk latte. I then went over to my boyfriend's house, Grayson. Grayson is 18. He's the best thing that could ever happen to me. I knocked on his door. He opened it with a huge smile on his face. "hey baby!" He said hugging me tight. I hugged back. "I missed you Soo much, how was jersey?" I asked. "it was amazing, I just stayed in the woods the whole time tho" he laughed a bit. "I'm glad you had a good time with your family, baby. Where's Ethan?" Ethan is like my brother. He's Grayson twin brother. "Oh hes in his room, I'm gonna make some popcorn and we can watch a movie?" He said it more of as a question. "Yea of course, I'll be right back" I ran up to his room and knocked on his door. He yelled. Fortnite..  he's addicted to that game. I walked in and he didn't see me so i walked behind him and smacked him upside his head. "Hey brotha what's up?" "Owww, im clearly in the midd- oh wait, OH MY GOSH, SOMMER. HEY!"  He got up and hugged me tight. "That was quite a mood change"I said, hugging him back. "Yea sorry" "it's fine. When did you paint your wall pink doofus?" "Oh the other week, Grayson actually did it" "oh, well it's really cool,I like it alot" "thanks, Sommer" "I'ma let you play, I'll be with Gray if you need me bro." "K bye"
I went back to the kitchen  and saw him already eating the popcorn.
"Wow fatass" I laughed.
"Haha how rude"
"I'm kidding, gosh."
"Wanna go watch that movie now babygirl?"

Every time he calls me that i get shivers down my spine.
"Y-yea of course."
He grabs my hand and takes me to his room, the master bedroom.
He puts on a scary movie. He lays down and puts the popcorn on his stomach and i lay on his chest.
"So, Sommer....I need to tell you something...."
"Go ahead, what's wrong." I sat up.
"I-i need a break...from us.."
As soon as he said that my heart shattered into a million peices.
"W-what? Why? What did I do?"
"You aren't giving me enough, Sommer"
" I'll give more, pleas just don't leave me" I was crying by now.
"I'm sorry, Sommer. We're over." I got up and got my stuff and left.
I ran home to cried myself to sleep

///Next day///

I woke up and did my normal morning routine. I did my makeup today. I skated to school today because I don't really care anymore. Im so over life..I love him so much. I don't understand how i wasn't enough for him. I gave him all of me. As I went to my locker,everyone stared at me with my skateboard in my hand. I just rolled my eyes and got my stuff and went to class. Like I said. I really don't care.

///Lunch///

I went to the cafeteria and I just bought an apple. I ate it and threw away the core. I layed my head on the table and cried. My mind was all kinds of fucked up.

I went to my fourth period and the bad boy is in my class. Jack Avery. He came up to me and wiped my mascara stain on my cheek. "Oh what's wrong,whore? Did little Grayson break up with your rich ass?" He said. I just looked down and nodded.
"Awhhhh, poor thing. Well, you're a slut anyway so.. not like it matters. You'll be out tonight fucking some random guy,I'm sure." I am furious. I look up at him and say, " look asshole, I haven't even lost my virginity yet. So you can shut the fuck up. I honestly don't even fucking care anymore. Hit me, I. Don't. Care." So he did just that. He punched me in my jaw. I just stood there like a doll, holding my face. He punched me again, and again, and again. I was up against the wall and he started to punch me in my stomach, making me spit blood. Nobody came to help me. They just stood there and watched. Even the teacher did. "Look,doll face. Next time, don't yell at me and then tell me to hurt you." I just stood there. I could barely breathe. "Thanks,jack. You are such a help." I said sarcasticly. "Anytime, Sommer." He said walking away. I just walked home. I'm sure paparazzi saw me but I don't care. When I got home my parents looked at me and rolled their eyes. "Why do you fake this,Sommer?" My mother asked.
"Mother, I'm not faking it."
"Sure you aren't." My father said, rolling his eyes. I barely made it up the stairs. I got to my room and cried. I didn't eat, sleep, shower, nothing. I just layed there and cried.
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I haven't ate in three days. I'm not hungry. I have to get out of bed because I'm babysitting today. So I got ready and forced myself to eat. Congratulations, Sommer. You got out of bed and got ready. I left and went to their house.
I knocked on the door and there was jack. I looked down. "What are you doing here rich bitch?"
"I'm Isla's babysitter..."
"Oh my god....come in, slut"
I walked in and went to her room. I knocked "come in" she yelled. I walked in "h-hey Isla.."
"Oh my gosh! hi, Sommer"
"What are you doing?"
"Oh, just playing with my Barbie's, will you please play with me?" She's so adorable.
"Yea of course!"
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"Are you hungry at all, Isla?" We were still playing with her dolls
"Yea kinda...can we get taco Bell?!"
"Um..yea sure. I'll order some!" I went downstairs. Jack was on his phone, sitting on the couch. "Hey, jack. W-would you like some taco Bell...I'm getting some for Isla.." I choked out barely.
He looked up at me and for some reason he stood up and walked to me. I got really scared. He took his thumb and ran it over my busted Lip. "J-jack what are y-you doing.."
"I'm sorry, Sommer. I-i dont know why I'm like this to you.." he said. I was shaking. "P-please dont hurt me" tears were forming in my eyes
"I will never hurt you again."

So...new book? Lol I hope you're enjoying it so far! My other book 'cheater' is doing really good tbh. I didn't think it would even get any reads. Like wow. Thanks for all of the love and support. I put alot of effort into what i write. If you did like this please, vote comment, and share this🖤. Love you the most,
Lydia🖤
   

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