My Punishment For My Mistakes

People say they know what depression is like.
But for me, it's just as people described.
It's is like a huge spike.
Right in your head. But for me, it also affected my heart.

For me, it was also like a dark cloud.
The dark cloud would hang over my head.
It made me hear voices that when they said things, they were always loud.
So loud, they made me almost go insane.

It is not going away.
It is like a suppressed thought.
It is stored in the back of my mind staying out of sight and away.
But when the moment is right, it occurs again only it is ten times worse.

I think I know what caused it.
And it is a theory I have.
If I am right about it,
Then Goblin King, please save me from this thing I now call my punishment.

Because it hurts so much.
How much I want you.
And I never thought of it much.
But I now know I made mistakes and I want to make amends.