Justin's POV: She said "never been with anyone before" , and at that moment I forgot how to swallow my food. I was choking, but I wasn't concerned about that. Twinkles is a virgin? No fucking way. The way she went down on me in the car. Virgin's can't be that good. Can they? I can't take that from her. I just can't. I'd rather choke. But Twinkles had to freaking heimlich me back to life. I should be thanking her,but all I wanna do is breathe. Now that I can again. "Say what?" Deep gasping breaths. "Um, what?" She's playing dumb. "When you say never been with anyone, you're basically saying your a virgin? Like you've never had sex?" "Basically." Now she's responding with one word answers. "Hailey, why didn't you tell me? I can't take that from you. I'm not robbing you from experiencing it the right way. I'm no good at that kind of stuff. I've been with more girls than I can count. I'm basically a man whore. You deserve someone who is pure and good." I felt like shit. I wanted to be worthy of her. But I knew I could never be. "Justin, you're not taking it. I'm giving it. You can't rob something that already belongs to you. I never had sex before, because nobody ever made me feel desire for it. Until you. I don't want some fictional prince. I want you and all of your damn flaws. Forget the past. It's just you and me. Live in the present. I want you. Don't deny me this." He was still in a flight or fight mode. He always thinks he's not worth being loved. It made me sad. I wrapped my arms around him. He wrapped his around me. "We'll see. Let's just take it as it comes. For now I'm gonna take you jet skiing. We need to lighten the mood. " So jet skiing we went. He rode and I hung on. He was battling the waves like he was fighting to make up his mind. When he finally leaned back to kiss my nose, I knew we would be ok.
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Justin spent the rest of the day keeping me "busy" with activities. We swam in the Ocean. We tried to build sand castles. That ended up in a competition as usual. He even hired hula dancers to entertain us at dinner. I knew what he was doing. He was trying to keep us occupied, so he wouldn't have to decide. Too bad, because my V-card was his regardless. I had an idea. I asked the staff for some help. I would get Justin to take a walk with me on the beach, while they put my plan in action. The walk was quiet at first. The sun was setting. Our sun kissed skin from the day was feeling the breeze of night. He took my hand. I squeezed. No words were needed. When we came back to the house, I led him to the hammock. I had his guitar leaning on it. "What's this about, Hails?" He looked at me quizzically. "I thought you could play a little. You always seem so relaxed and happy when you're playing. And I love watching you play." An adorable smile was forming on his face. "You like when I play,huh? Well what does Twinkles want to hear?" He sat down on the hammock with his guitar in hand. "Play me something that your feeling. " He strummed the strings and started to sing. All I could do was stand there and watch him with awe. "I don't work hard when it's easy I put in work when it's hard Girl I never believed in Love until I had yours This is more than a season And I'm not just sprung I'm not afraid to tell ya That you're the one The one I wake up thinking about The one I can run to when I'm feeling down Life is all good when your around Girl nobody from the past is beating you right now Cause I take you home to mama... " When he was done, he put his guitar down and walked up to me. He smiled and whispered in my ear, "I may not deserve you, but I want you regardless. I adore everything about you, Hailey Baldwin. I'm yours if you'll have me." He leaned in, and I answered him with my mouth to his.
