Silent Thoughts

Hey, how are you?

'Hey, how are you?'
The question I dread to hear
The thought process behind answering it can go on for years
Don't worry I'm fine.
Wait am I crying.
Or am I slowly dieing.
I really don't know you put me on the spot
I wish I could redirect the question to you
But I can't it's a little bit to late for that
My mind is rushing from positive to negative
The good and bad things in my life
I can eat I'm not Ill I have a great family
I can't eat I'm mentally ill my family is a mess
My body wants to give up and let go
But I can't let you know
I've got a gallon of emotions
Should I spill one or two
But if I do the whole gallon would come to
I don't think I'm ready to do that
Not to mention...
to have you listen...
MY STUPID EMOTIONS
THERE OUT OF COMMOTION
DON'T SAY ITS OK
ILL FIND A WAY
One day.
'Oh I fine, how are you?'