If I could press the fast-forward button,
I would zoom past the filmy white images
Of nothingness, overlapping one another,
Blank, empty black torn pages
From this tragedy. I think people romanticize pain
Because there is really nothing else you can do about it
But sit it out, wait for the poison to drip
Slowly out of the system till you're deem fit
To enter civilization but stay on the edge of fantasy
Because too much reality will send you back paces
To square one, dreams ripped apart with what-ifs and maybes
And colours and light and familiar faces.
Pain isn't pretty, no matter how hard I try to paint
Canvases out of the oil of wishes because there is no base,
Nothing to hold onto, nothing to sketch,
Nothing edible enough to bring to taste
And pain isn't just a stab through your heart. Pain is
Empty days spent wondering why you cannot escape
The muddled fog of the sky, the slimy tendrils of the past,
Empty nights staying up just to wait.
When I write, I try to spare my heroine
The emptiness but alas, as empty as pain can be,
There are also rash decisions, bad plans and sections of sobriety
And days and days of crying
And nights and nights of writing
And screaming at the ghosts in your mind,
The sound of your lips wishing to be fine
And maybe some days, everything seems okay
But the next, it's a muddled mess of a spoilt rotten cake
And there is nothing pretty in this. Nothing at all.
Nothing until you start to fall.
And sometimes, if we're lucky, we get out alright,
With scars, and stitches and the pain as a memory
And sometimes, we don't but it's okay.
We just go through the same cycle until one day, we find a way.
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Poems for the Sad and Weary
PoetryThis is my third book of poems and to be really honest, I'm thankful that I had even been able to finish the last two books. I feel like I'm a completely different person from the first book of poems I had started and that's okay with me. Maybe this...