This feeling is killing me
This pain is overwhelming
This pressure .... I cant handel it anymore
I know I have to fight but I cant
My body is exhausted and my mind is drowning in self hate ..
I hate myself
Ihate every inch of my body
I hate hearing how my heart pounds
I hate waking up every morning knowing that I have to fight against my will
I just want a break ...
I feel like drowning but I only fall deeper and deeper and it never stops....
I don't want to disappoint people...
I hate that it still happens..
I just want it all to stop....
I feel like I am trapped... and there is no way out
I don't know what to do anymore...
I feel like there is no other option left..
but I will fail....like I do every time
I cant do anything right
I just want to
...
die