If You Want to Kill Yourself Tonight, Read This

Chapter 1

You wake up and go downstairs into the kitchen. It's a normal Thursday morning. You grab something to eat before quickly running upstairs to get dressed. You get ready and run out the door to catch your bus. You arrive at school on time and sit in class. Your normal school day passes. However, after school you get a phone call. It was your amazing significant other... they called you crying. They cheated on you... they told you that it was your best friend... you shake it off and tell yourself you'd be okay but even you didn't believe yourself. You drive home, in silence..

You walk into your house and go upstairs. You feel... Awkward. Well... You don't feel anything at all. Your smile from school memories fade and you quickly shut the door. The wave of sadness and numbness takes over. Before you know it, you are on your knees crying. You make your way over to your bed and can't stop. The tears pour down your face as you frantically dig through your bed side table to find the blade you used the night before. You take off your pants and start making deep cuts on your thigh. "Worthless" "fat" "unloved" "ugly"... Words like this flood your head as the red scarlet liquid floods down your leg and onto the floor. You whisper "Not good enough. Never will be good enough." Into the air as you make your final cut for the day. You look at your left leg... Memories flood back into your vision as you remember being in the same position the night before. The cuts you made last night probably should have been treated by a doctor... They obviously need stitches. You scurry across your room to get out the gauze you had intentionally stashed away. You wrap both of your legs tightly and sit back on your bed. You feel so dizzy. You can feel the tiredness taking over. There is a trail of blood on the floor from where just you walked but you tell yourself you will clean it when you wake up.... And before you know it, you're submerged in darkness.