misdirection

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March 25, 2015

"Zayn Malik, one-fifth of the massively popular boy band One Direction, has left the group.

One Direction announced his departure on Facebook not long after Malik departed from their world tour because of "stress."

"I am leaving because I want to be a normal 22-year-old who is able to relax and have some private time out of the spotlight," Malik said in the statement. "I know I have four friends for life in Louis, Liam, Harry and Niall. I know they will continue to be the best band in the world."

The band says it will continue to record as a foursome and release a fifth album this year."

My whole world just crashed watching the fucking news. My vision is getting blurry. No. This is not happening. Hindi 'to pwedeng mangyari!

I'm quite aware that the other shoppers are currently looking at me but I am too emotional to care. Pumunta lang naman ako dito sa ACE para bumili ng panglinis ng bag ng mommy ko pero I didn't expect na ganito ang maaabutan ko.

Here I am, staring blankly at the television, tears flowing, while the news of Zayn leaving One Direction is flashing through the screen. Napahikbi ako. Of all places, dito pa ako nagkalat sa ACE. Bakit ba dito ko pa nalaman na aalis na si Zayn ng 1D?

I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. I'm pretty sure that I'm overreacting pero, si Zayn kasi 'yon! Aalis si Zayn ng One Direction! Big deal 'yon!

Iba na ang news na pina-flash sa screen pero I was still staring blankly at the TV. Kinapa ko 'yung bag ko for some tissue pero wala akong makapa. Damn, hindi pa ata ako nakapagdala. Pinunasan ko mga pisti kong luha using my hands.

"You know, people tend to leave when they're not happy doing what they're doing anymore. I mean, why would you stay kung hindi ka na masaya, 'di ba?", I looked at my left at may guy na nakatayo sa tabi ko.

May kinuha sya sa bulsa nya and binigay sa'kin. It was a handkerchief. Uhm, who is this guy? Kilala ko ba 'to? Tiningnan ko lang 'yung panyo na binibigay nya sa'kin.

When he noticed na wala akong balak tanggapin 'yung panyo, s'ya na mismo ang nagpunas 'nung mga luha ko. To say that I was shocked was an understatement. Inagaw ko sa kanya 'yung panyo. Ngumiti na lang s'ya.

"Uhm, sorry? Kilala ba kita?", I asked him habang unti-unting lumalayo.

Still smiling, sabi nya "No, but it looked like you really need something to wipe off those tears. I'm just here to offer some help. Ayaw kong nakakakita ng babaeng umiiyak."

I had no idea what to say so I just looked at him at kiming ngumiti. Hindi ko 'to kilala, malay ko ba kung budol-budol 'to. Kiming nagpasalamat na lang ako para sa panyo tapos akmang aalis na. Hindi ko na ibabalik sa kanya 'yung panyo. May luha ko na e at tsaka mukha namang wala na syang balik kunin pabalik.

"Why were you crying over that anyway? If you're a true fan, you should be happy.", napatingin uli ako sa kanya. What the fuck?

I looked at him, "Excuse me?"

"Sabi ko, if you're a true fan, dapat masaya ka. Hindi ka dapat umiiyak.", namulsa pa s'ya as if he's stating something factual.