The girl who Found... (discontinued)

Chapter1: Introduce Yourself

Hi. My name is Haley Bucket and I have a story to tell you. I am nervous to tell you but I suppose it's time I spread the word... The word about me.

So, on July 5th 2018, I found who I was meant to be. I found myself to be a lesbian. I was only twelve when I figured this out but now, nearly a year of being a lesbian, I've come to terms with it but still have a battle with myself some of the time.

At the time of figuring this out, I'd already known about it for a few weeks before I hinted to my mum of being a lesbian. It didn't take her long to figure it out which I'm actually glad about because I hated talking about it.

I would always try to hint to my followers on social media but no one really caught on until I started to tell people at school in person. But still, I was scared to say one simple phrase..

Through out my time of trying to figure my life out, I would constantly make up stories of how I'd meet this beautiful girl who'd I spend as much of my time with her as I could but with my thinking, someone( or both of us) would end up in hospital; every night I would imagine what it would be like to be a lesbian, even though I already knew. My thoughts were always bad and I'd make it out that everybody wouldn't accept me... All I wanted was someone too talk to that wasn't a friend or a family member..

Nearly all my thoughts were kept to myself and no one would know unless I asked for their opinion on something that I thought that I would tend to over think otherwise. Even most of my diary was hidden from people because it had all my personal thoughts and feelings in it.

I never found it easy to talk about the LGBTQ+ community because it sometimes seemed embarrassing to talk about. I wanted to try to talk to my form tutor but like I've said, I find it hard to do so..

I'm not the confident spirt that you usually see me as when you first meet me but, slowly but surly, you will see the loud and bright version of me. But, you will find me annoying in the end. When I started year seven, I had no one to talk too, no one to have fun with and no one to be there when I needed someone the most.

There's so much more about me that's waiting to be told..