My First Crush

My First Crush at School

What does love mean? Love means when your heart skipped a beat when you see that particular person you like.

When I was in my 3rd grade, I met this girl named Krizma Marie. At first, I really don't find her as an attractive person because she is just an ordinary girl. One day, we have this activity in school where we need to bring attires for different kinds of seasons and occasions and have our own fashion show by responsible teams. When their group was presenting, I found her in a party clothes and that was the time I got a crush on her. When I am near her, I feel like my heart was on a race. I feel awkward when I got the time to talk with her. When my classmates asked me who my crush was, I never told them. They kept on asking me again and again of who my crush was, when they got tired of asking me, I just laughed hysterically at them. 

When I was on my 6th grade, our teacher was discussing a boring discussion, I got my notebook and my pen and went to the back page of my notebook and started writing random stuffs because of boredom. I wrote my favorite lines of songs, my favorite cartoon characters and finally my crush's name. I just smiled while writing her name. After a few days, this classmate of mine is fond of touching things that is not hers. While we were doing this another group activity, I got busy doing the tasks that were given to me. Then my touchy classmate, (without me knowing) he got my notebook on where I wrote those random things. After the group work, my touchy classmate got near me and whispered,

"So, your crush is Krizma?" she said. 

I opened my eyes widely and looked at her.

"How did you know?" I said to her still my eyes wide.

"Just touched your notebook while you are busy with the tasks given to you and saw what you wrote there." she laughed and went away.

I was so pissed that I got at the back page of my notebook and ripped that page I wrote on and threw it on the garbage can.

Tomorrow came and I didn't know that my touchy classmate spread already that my crush was Krizma. When it was recess time, my classmates were going to me while saying,

"Ayiee... Krizma is her crush."

I felt so embarrassed that I got a bad mood on that day. 

During the graduation day on my 6th grade, I heard that Krizma is going to transfer another school. I feel so sad deep inside of me.

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It was a hot summer day; my younger sister has a recital on her hula dance. I didn't know that the younger sister of my crush is also part of the recital. I got excited when I saw the younger sister of my crush, I looked around the place hoping that I can see her, but sadly, I didn't see her. When I was getting a video of my sister's performance, I saw a familiar girl standing on my right front side. I poked her and she looked at me. It was her. I stopped the video and greeted her. She was smiling as we were talking. After my sister's recital, I found that my dad and my crush's mom were talking. Then my crush's mom saw me and said,

"This is your eldest? He is so tall." She said. "You're classmate with my daughter, right?" she added.

" Yes, tita." I replied.

Then she called Krizma because she wants to have a picture the both of us. I got that hoity toity feeling inside because I was about to have a picture with my crush. When my crush arrived, she stood beside me and said,

"You're so tall now, Noven. And I'm still short." She said while holding my arm.

After the taking of the picture, we directly went home and I cannot sleep that night.

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When I was in my 7th grade, we were in the gymnasium because there was a seminar. My classmate who was beside me, told that she has a friend in the school where my crush was. She told me that to write in a piece of paper about my feelings to my crush because she is going to give it to her friend and pass it to Krizma. Like, pass the message. I thought that my classmate was only joking, so I did what she told me and gave it to her.

Tomorrow came and my classmate told me that she already gave it to her friend. I was so shock and frustrated, that I don't know what to do. Then out of somewhere, the best friend of my crush, also my classmate, got near me and told that Krizma received a letter from me. She told me that Krizma, was so disappointed with me. When we arrived home, I opened my Facebook account hoping that she was also online, then I saw her name. I clicked it and said,

"Hi."

"Hello. :)" she replied.

"How are you?"

"Good, and you?"

"I'm fine." I said. "I have something to tell you." I added.

"What is it?"

"About the letter? Anissa told me that you were really disappointed. I'm sorry."

"Oh. I was shocked, but not disappointed. It's okay" she said.

"And another thing, still about the letter. The content of that letter was real."

I closed my eyes on what will she reply.

"Seriously? Ahh... That's alright! Thank you. :)"

I sighed of relief that her reply was not negative.

"You're not angry with me?"

"Nope." She said.

After that, I was stalking the Facebook account of her younger sister hoping that I can see the picture of me and my crush. And yes, I found it. I made it as my profile picture for months.