a view into the mind

Mental Warfare

I know your feelings towards me are only of hatred but we must put on a face to mask it. It would only be fair we keep this quarrel between ourselves and not let our parents and friends find out. I've done all I can to make you happy but it never seems to be enough. I see how you've grown attached to these feelings but I'm not quite sure how to change that. There are things in my life I would like to reverse and how we all wish time travel would work. But what's happened now cannot be reversed so let's just try to coexist. It won't be easy considering how close we are but there's nothing we can do to pull us apart. Please stop the screaming it's not going to help I can only sit here and try to block out the sound. Can't there be just one night where I don't hear your disapproving shout. I stare at the ceiling and think of where I've been and what I've done but only you know my true intentions. I'm a horrible person with much to bare but I can't help but try and continue this affair. It might ruin people more than ourselves if we gave up and broke apart. The after effects we wouldn't get to see because all that would be left was a body. It's all becoming too much but there's no one I can tell. Nobody would understand how you can just hate yourself. Nobody sees it not even the mirror but I know myself and I hate her.