Everyone had walked across the stage. All the names had been called. The blue hats flew up in the air and everyone cheered. The air was thick and hot and I could feel my hair sticking to the back of my neck. Everyone in the bleachers stood up around me and made their way down to the field. I watched figures move around for a few minutes before I decided to stand up. The concrete bleachers left little indents on my legs where I had been sitting. I brushed myself off and walked down the stairs looking and searching through all the people for a specific figure. I knew what I was looking for but I didn’t know why. He didn’t want me anymore. He had found someone knew. He was in love. But here I was walking down to the crowd of people. I could barely hear myself think through the blur of talking. “I’m so proud of you baby” I heard a lady say to her son and pull him in for a hug. What am I doing? I thought for about the hundredth time since I had even pulled in the parking lot about an hour ago. A young girl bumped into me and snapped me out of my thoughts. She had brown curly hair and a blue gown on like all the other graduates. It was her, Alicia. The new girlfriend. My eyes followed her through the crowd and I moved slowly behind her. I stayed close enough nor to lose her but far enough away for her not to notice me. Even if she did notice me I doubt she would even know who I am. Would I matter to her? Did she know that I was in love with her boyfriend? That before her it was me he wrapped his arms around and kissed on the cheek. She led me right to him. His hair was still black as a crow and a little shaggy. His eyes were still a beautiful whiskey color. The chip in his tooth was still there from when he passed out drunk at a party. I saw him smile at her and I died a little inside. I was still trying to figure out why I had come here. To torture myself maybe? I guess I just needed to see him one more time. I watching him lean down and kiss her and I was about to break out in tears. I couldn’t move and I couldn’t look away. I watched as his mouth moved but I couldn’t focus enough to know what he said. Then he looked up and saw me. We made eye contact and my heart skipped a beat. I felt like he was reading my mind and looking into my soul. The few seconds we locked eye contact before Alicia pulled him back to reality felt like decades. I watched his face go from blank to smiling again when he looked down at her. Then he glanced back up at me, back down to her, back up to me, and down at her again. One last time he looked back up and I found the courage to move. I broke out in tears and turned around to run. I pushed passed everyone in my way muttering “I’m so sorry” and “excuse me” all the way to my car. I hit the unlock button over and over until I got to my car. I reached out with my right hand to grab the door handle. As my hand grabbed the handle someone grabbed my other hand.
