The Déesse

The nightmares

"Noooo don't please stop" I woke up panting for air and as I checked my alarm on my nightstand it was 4:36am. 'We'll I might as well wake up' . I had been having these nightmares since I was 10 after my uncle molested me. Something I never spoke about as he promised to kill me and my parents if I ever said a word. And that was the death of the bubbly and happy soul that lived inside me.

I sat up and rubbed off the sleep left in my eyes and headed to my ensuit bathroom and ran myself a bath. I walked back to my room to fetch my toiletries and began my morning routine. I hesitated a bit before looking in the mirror. Something I had gotten used too. I looked at my now black eyes that only turned to their natural hazel colour when I was happy which never happened 'what happened to me' I thought. Quickly snapped out of it realising the tap was still running. I turned to turn it off. I slowly took off my night gown and entered the water letting it numb all the pain I was enduring.

I let the water soak in the fresh war scars. Tears flowing freely from my eyes in the only place I let them out. I sat inside the hot water thinking of the horrible day I was about to have at school in oversized baggy clothes I had to wear whether it was hot or cold to hide my scars. "Sinovuyo" my mom called from behind the door."Mom get out you know your not supposed to be in here". I waited silently for a response."you'll be late for school you don't get out of the bathroom now!" Mom said as her squicky sweet voice had turned cheeky and a bit deep.

I walked out of the bathroom walked straight to my closet making sure to keep away from the mirror. I'm a huge fan of mythical sea creatures so my closets mostly filled with clothes that have merrows, sirens and serrens(all in all mermaids) on them. I pulled out a black knitted jersey and and black jeans that were a bit oversized and my converse."Sinovuyo your gonna make me late for work or do you prefer walking to school?" Moms squicky voice echoed from downstairs."I'm coming down. Don't swallow me okay" I snatched my leather bag and my phone from my nightstand and ran downstairs, "honey, your lunch bag." "Yes mom". I ran towards the kitchen to fetch my lunch bag before heading to the car.

Yaaay can't wait to get to hell...-i mean school... will you shut up. School ain't that bad keep telling yourself, you can't lie to me I'm a part of you and I'll be here forever...hey could you pretend I'm doing an evil laugh... could you just shut up for once in your damn 15 years of life people will think I'm crazy Well you are the one talking to your conscious so no your not crazy at all. Urghhh shut up.

"Honey you okay, why you frowning" mom asked wearing a worried look. "I'm fine mom, I just wanna get to school" "Honey I think you've misused the word fine that it lost it's meaning, but I'll let it pass" She paused for a moment and got in the car." But if your ready to talk I'll always be here, honey." I nodded." Okay now let s get you to school before you get late". She smiled sheepishly. And drove out the driveway.

This is gonna be a long day. (Sigh)

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Heyy guys that's it for the first chapter should I or should I not continue writing? Please leave your comments

This book is somewhat not entirely fictional but I'll keep on writing so you'll find out more.❤