Decisions

I want a happy life. Like a fairytale. But things just don't work out for me the way I want them to.

I'm so ugly and my hair is a big frizzy mess all the time. My teeth aren't perfect,I'm not smart in school. I'm completely imperfect and no where near perfection.

I don't have a lot of friends and people don't like me...

I guess I'm to shy and don't open up enough. But why do I need friends anyway? we are all gonna get out of school and never talk again. So what's the point?

I like to just stay in my room listen to music and read books,books about girls who have everything they want and are flawless,sometimes I wish I could be them..but that will never happen.

My mother died when I was little. She was such a nice caring person. But her life was taken by a drunk driver when I was 5,I'm 17 now so the pain isn't as strong but its always there. I miss my mom terribly,I need girl advice and I can't go to my dad for that. Hes a big tough scary looking guy but he's not scary at all. He's more like a plush toy once you get to know him.

But I can't go to him for a lot of things. Like boy advice or girl issues and all that. So life is pretty hard but my best friend Isabelle has always been there and helped me through things. We have been neighbors since birth. She's practically my sister and I like to think she is being the fact I'm an only child.

Isabelle is a very girly yet tomboyish type of girl. At school she has the nicest clothes and if she is ever out of the house she is dressed real nice. But on weekends and nights she's with me she likes to just chill in sweatpants and an extra large T-shirt because its comfortable. She is so use to coming over that she just walks in but my dad and I dont mind at all. She is one friend he likes. In fact she's suppose to be coming over today. I'll hear her coming or she will yell to me.

"Amelia Dixon where are you!?" Isabelle yelled through my house from downstairs.

"The only place I would be,my room duh."

"Don't get sassy with me"

I heard her loud heavy feet stomping up the stairs.

She barged into my room and laid herself down on my bed.

"what are we doing tonight Amelia?"

"same as usual we are gonna watch movies on Netflix we have never seen and talk about how bad or good they are."

"oh okay"

Isabelle and I aren't really the party kinda girls. We like to relax and just be us,we don't think getting fucked up is fun,we think its a bit immature.

I mean what's so fun about getting wasted and than having a hangover?

I refuse to ever drink because of what happened to my mom.

Its not easy resisting peer pressure but I learned to say no really easily and kinda got use to it.

When Isabelle came in I was reading a book about ones true love and how she found out she was royalty and was rich and had a fairy tale life after that.

Isabelle thinks its dorky to read that kind of stuff but I enjoy it. I want to be like those girls but I'm not pretty, I look like my dad so I have a boyish look in my face.

The night went by fast and we had already watched 6 movies so we fell asleep. When I woke up Isabelle was gone and so was my dad. I saw a note and It said:

-Amelia

      Isabelle had to go home early because she had plans with her mom, and I'm going into work today and I'll be home around 10 tonight.

                 Love, Dad.

I was use to being home alone. It gave me more time to read and that's exactly what I did.

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~WeepingWillows~