Never Enough

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Love, its a brutal battle that is hard to win. I fought to the end of the world for him but it wasnt enough to make him stay. He wanted new experiences but i wanted things to stay the same. He offered for me to join him but I love my home too much. College woukd be brutal not for just me but for him. His departure was hard for both of us but we promised not to cry.

I ended things with him. My heart cant take a long distance relationship and he's too head strong to admit such a thing to be true. Standing there in the airport everything felt All too real. This was happening all to fast. As he took my hand for what might be the last time i felt something slide into my hand. The promise ring. Of course, we broke our promise. /I/ broke out promise.

"No matter what happens I'll alwayd be your friend and thats a promise I won't let you break Mark." He voice spoke strongly but I could hear the sadness in his voice. He leaned down slightly giving me a kiss goodbye. Once pulling away I could see the tears in his eyes. My heart broke at his sad face.

"I love you so much Jinyoung" my voice cracked as I told the love of my life I loved him one last time. I reached behind my neck unhooking the necklace around it. It was simple just a locket nothing new. I slowly handed it to him, "I changed the picture so you'll always remember me." He nodded handing it back so i can help him put it on.

"Text me everyday okay?" He smiled sadly looking at me after I put the locket around his neck. I chuckled in a gloomy tone nodding. I would never forget to text him or call him. But would he remember to do the same.

"Yeah... Have fun in korea but not too much fun," I side smiled as an announcement rung through the basically empty airport that the flight to Korea was now boarding. We hugged again and I kissed his forehead.

Jinyoung picked up this bags and turmed around. Earlier that day he had promised me he wouldnt turn around. It would be too cliche and I didn't want that. I watched him as he went and kind of hoped thatbhe would look back but, he didn't. The tears that were stuck in my eyes started to fall. I myself turned around amd started to head out of the airport. I can't believe he was leaving, no one but me and his family knew he was leaving. Now it would be all on me to tell everyone where he went.

As I exited the airport I was hit with large raindrops. The sky is crying, just like me. I nonchalantly walk to my car and get in. I'm already soaked and my car was only 5 steps away from thr airport. I start my piece of shït that I call a car and drive back to my apartment. At my apartment I live with 2 other guys. Bambam the straight asshole everyone thinks is cute and Yugyeom the sweet boy who had the most obvious crush on Bambam.

I know that when I get home Yugyeom would welcome me home and Bambam would stay in his room playing video games. I took the long way home today. It was more scenic that way. I remember taking this ride with Jinyoung many times. The last time we took it I never thought it'd be our last. I would probably ride this route alone from now on.

Love is truly a brutal battle. This time I didn't win. He didn't win. But I feel a new battle will begin. Something about almost running over a carless man told me maybe there was hope.

I stop my car suddenly before I hit the poor soaking man walking along the road. I pondered what I should do. Maybe be nice? I coukd be mean and let him die of the cold. That's not what Jinyoung would do... I sigh I'm still thinking about him. Of course. I shake my head before rolling down my window and stickibg my head out in the rain.

"Hey! Need a ride?!" I yell as the short boy turns around with a sad look on his face. I swear he resembled that of a lost puppy. I snorted softly at hiw snotty amd wet his face was. He had been crying the rain wasn't heloing to hide it. I motion for him to come over to the care and pop my trunk seeing his suitcase.

"Throw your stuff in the back kid. Do you have somewhere to go?" He shook his head as he put his stuff in the trunk. He went back to the front amd sat in the seat beside the driver seat. I gave him one gokd look and burst out laughing at how funny he looked all wet and snotty. Poor kid....

"Seeing as I'm trying to be more nice I'll take you to my place let you dry off we'll talk there." I took the car out of park and began driving again.

"Thank you" his raspy voice rang out. He shook his head violently sending water all over my car. I scoffed as drops of water hit my face. I waved off his thanks and continued the drive home. It was a quiet drive but I didn't feel awkward in the slightest. No it was quite comfortable sitting in quiet with someone. All Jinyoung wanted to do was talk and I need to have some quiet time sometimes.

When arriving to my shïtty apartment I help the boy inside. I had yet to ask his name but questions would be asked after he was dry. I walk inside with him trailing behind me and I make sure to enter loudly knowing Yugyeom would hear me come in.

As if on perfect timing Yugyeom came running into the front hallway about to ask me a million questions before his eyes landed on mystery boy.

"Who is he?" Yugyeom crossed his arms looking at me suspiciously.

The male was about to open his mouth but I spoke first, "Don't know found him soaking wet on my way home. I'm offering a warm shower and whatever is for dinner," I put emphasis on dinner cause I knew nothing was ready yet and I needed Yugyeom to make something. Yugyeom nodded and headed to the kitchen to make something out of nothing.

I lead mystery boy tonthe bathroom giving him a towel and a change of clothes seeing as his luggage were probably just as soaked as he was.

"What's you're name by the way." I finally ask the male.

He smiles softly chuckling. I cock an eyebrow confused why he was laughing, "I was waiting to you to ask... I'm Jackson. Jackson Wang." He answered honestly nodding his head.

I make a sound of understanding, "I'm Mark, Mark Tuan. Nice to meet you Jackson Jackson Wang." I joke for a second as I take him to the bathroom. He laughs with me following close behind. Once in the bathroom I show him how the shower works and what soaps he can use. He gives me another smile before pushing me out of my bathroom.

"Thank you Mark for being so nice." He closes the door and I can hear him stripping his clothes. I walk away back to the kitchen. I give Yugyeom a bug hug from behind. I nuzzle my face into his neck and sigh.

"Mark I know your sad but I can't always be the one you come back to when you're sad." The younger male says with a sigh.

In the past me and Yugyeom also dated. We dated for 5 years before I met jinyoung and he met BamBam. We promised to still be friends amd in my heart I kbie I still love him just not like that. I thought back to how it would've been if we stayed together. Stayed High school sweet hearts, marry, adopt kids. But then I remember how much i loved Jinyoung and wanted to do that stuff with him. It makes me sad that he left. Now I have no one.

"I-I know but I miss us sometimes... You know that... I'm also sad about Jinyoung but that's nothing new." I sigh looking up to kiss his cheek. He knows I mean everything I do platonicly. Some people think we're together but we're not.

"Lemme finish up dinner. I'm making pasta with meat sauce." He tries to shrug me off but stops knowing I wont let go. He also sighs continuing to cook.

I let go for a second to stretch. Suddenly I hear a sharp scream from the bathroom. Maybe the rats are back....

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Word count: 1493

A/n: I'm taking a new direction with this tell me what you think.