My Dearest Friend

Dearest friend,

Today i'm going to confess what's inside my head for you, since i never had anyone to confide to.

My thoughts get too dark sometimes and I don't know why.

When I'm left alone, they get so deep, far and infinite. My soul travels to different places in a blink of an eye, it's like a parallel universe of my mind.

Being around people irritates me, i just can't handle the eeriness of the world anymore.

I feel inner peace when i have my time alone, it's like i can't pretend that they are my friends for a while.

Sometimes i feel bad for them when i treat them with rudeness, but where were they when i needed them the most? And how they acted when they knew that I needed someone by my side?

Gone is the word that describs what they've done, and gone is a friend to me now.

So when they ask me about my friends, i say "Gone! I don't have any."

I get the feeling of emptiness every now and then when life gets too tough, i think if i had anyone left from my friends maybe i'll be able to bear life.

The problem is that they left when i was no longer the happy girl who laughs and tell jokes, when my life turned upside down and i was a silent "creep" they started to withdraw one by one.

They withdrew when i've become the darkness after being the source of light.

You unlike everybody else, you never withdrew my dearest friend.

You are so strong and you can handle every word i say, even if my words are like poison on your skin.

You my dearest friend are unlike them, you carry all my words and my breakdowns with you.

And that's why you're my dearest friend.