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Moving Struggles

This poem was mainly about learning I was moving, which was a big step in my life. I now realize where I used to live wasn't really the best town to grow up in, which is why I live where I do now. This also hints at my burning anxiety that tears me apart till this very day :D! 

Listen, no one ever said poetry was supposed to be happy.

In my room sitting

In my mind playing

My parents call me down

"We have something to tell you" they say

"We are moving to the town you are writing this poem in" they say

My blood turns to ice

Frosting over the one place I have called home for the past eight years

Frosting over the house I have lived in for the past five

They say it's good

Mom has a new job

Dad enrolls in a new college

I go to the school I write this in now

Everyone should be happy as a sunny day

I'm not

I pretend to be happy

But I'm not

That's a lie but also the truth

Inside I'm battling

I will have a new opportunity

There, I had no friends

Usually I was a rain cloud without rain

A sunny day without sun

A few months pass and we pack

Wrong one step with the boxes and there goes my back

We find our new home

We find our new lives

We live here now

I have friends

I am happy as can be

I now realize my old home wasn't the best

I still miss it

I'm still a rain cloud without rain

Still a sunny day without sun

Most days