if I Killed Someone For You // seungjin

if i killed someone for you

dear hyunjin,

what would happen if I killed someone for you?

I would confess but my face is already all over news.

I'm wanted you to be sad hyunjin, but you won't care.

When you get this, I will be somewhere

I'm on the run and I'm not safe.

I'm sorry.

I tried to make you happy, but I couldn't.

I remember you hating that person, so I killed them.

They were interfering with your perfect life, your perfect grades, your perfect family.

I remember you telling me that you wanted them dead or changed.

I remember you telling me that you wanted them to change, to make you happy.

I remember when you figured out they smoked, I can't believe you figured it out tbh.

I remember when you told me that they weren't pretty, that they were ugly and imperfect.

I remember you pointing out every of their imperfections, I remember it all.

I can't believe that when I'm writing this, I'll be writing with pain and hurt.

I can't believe that I killed someone for you.

I can't believe the blood on the walls was real.

I couldn't believe the words that they shouted out.

I can't believe that they screamed until they died.

I'm sorry.

They told me to tell you that they loved you, but you treated them like shit.

I can't believe it.

I still can't.

but I have to, I was the one who killed them.

I can't believe that I killed myself for you.

I hope you're happy and healthy.

I hope you don't cry, but you wouldn't anyway.

I hope you don't rip this up after reading, because after this you'll have no other memorable items left of me.

I hope you don't get scared of the blood, the blood that's my own.

When you get this, a black hooded man is going to give this to you.

You're going to accept it.

You're gonna read it until you piss your pants.

And when you finish this letter, tell my brother and my sister.

My parents won't care.

Thank you for the memories,

thank you for the torture.

Thank you, goodbye.

-from the deceased,
                                         Seungmin :)