It's Charlie, I'm not doing good... Haven't been doing well for like almost three weeks now... Just a depressive mood I'm sure but it's so hard. I've come close to messing up and trying to take my life again. Im really trying and i can't always explain why i feel the way I do...but I just feel awful. So much stress lately, and among other things I'm just so...down so low. I've lost a lot of people lately, and i can't help but think that it's me, my personality is toxic and no one can stay around me for very long. I am however trying to work things out and it's hard. I hate feeling like this, i hate talking yet if i don't I feel like I'll disappear. Here one day and gone the next and if i keep it in no one will know til its too late and maybe I need accountability even if I feel like an attention whore by even typing this oyt...but sometimes the good thing to do is hard... So um...yeah heh..
