.Breaunna.
{6:10 AM Friday March 18}
I guess you can call it gawking after 5 minuets, right? I've been sitting here in the same spot watching him through my window and I can't seem to rip my eyes away. And by him, I mean Ray. Every morning he gets up at 5:30 and works out before getting ready for school. I know this from many late nights that turn into early mornings. Usually, I don't stare, but for some reason I just couldn't help myself. The way his muscles flexed when he lifted weights and how sweat would pour down from his beautifully sculpted body and especially how the way his way his face contorts when he's about finish a rep. My God. It reminds me of the face he makes when he's about to cum. I know I sound crazy and trust me, I've come to this realization a long time ago. I don't know when or how, but I fell for ray. He isn't as bad as I thought he was actually. He was sweet,caring,and funny actually. That's a Side of ray I usually don't see when we're in school. I only get to witness that side when it's just us. Out of the months that we've been casually sleeping together, he started to open up to me, showing me things about him that I would never think he'd be interested in. Like for example, he loves to draw, and boy can he. I actually I have some of his drawings in my closet. They were little portraits of me he did after we'd have sex and we were just chilling. He also loves to write. That caught me by surprise seeing that I also love to write, I have notebooks full of poetry. The thing is, I never really read any of his poetry. He always said he was self conscious about his work, but I think his poems show his true feelings and he obviously had problems showing them. All around, ray was a great guy once you got to know him, but confusing. One moment we're cool when it's just us, then next he's back to being a jackass when we're out in public. I just don't get it, or him I guess.
After abut another 5 minuets of gawking, ray caught me staring and gave me a sly smirk before picking up his phone and typing something. He dropped his phone on his dresser and winked at me. Moments latter I got a text..from ray.
Ray :/ - mmm, you look good in my clothes ;)
I quickly glanced down at my sleeping attire. I was wearing one of ray's shirts he let me hold last week when I spent the night as his place. I smirked and texted him back.
"Mmm, you look good in sweat ;)"
I laughed as I pressed send, shooting him back a wink before I proceeded toward my bathroom for a shower. After 15 minuets I got out of the shower only realizing then I had forgotten my towel in my room. I sighed as I pranced into my room in all my naked glory to get it. I looked around my messy room, making a mental note to clean it latter, for my towel until I spotted it across he room in a pile of dirty clothes. I made my way over to it and bent down, grabbing it.
"Damn girl!" I jumped as I heard the familiar voice behind me.
"Fuck,Ray! You scared the shit out of me!" I sad covering my body with my towel.
He chuckled a bit, "My bad, all I was trying to do was fuck the shit out of you" he said coming closer with a seductive look on his face. I couldn't help but noticed he only had on basketball shorts and was still sweaty. I bit my lip, slightly turned on.
"Well too bad, I just got out of the shower. Should've came earlier." I said shrugging my shoulders. " by the way how did you get in here?" I asked raising my eyebrow. He was half naked and I know he didn't get in here through the front door. My dad nor my brother was letting that happen.
He smirked, "you know you should really learn to lock your window at night"
"And you should learn to keep it in your pants.." I said returning a smirk.
He brought my body closer to his, grabbing my arms and pinning me against the wall causing my towel to drop. He bit his lip while taking my naked body in, "I know but, you're just so addicting.." he trailed off and started kissing my neck. " you know I can't go long without your, sweet treasure" he was now whispering in my ear, causing me to shiver.
"but you just had some of my sweet treasure yesterday"
"I know and I'm already suffering from withdrawal" I smirked at his comment. I loved knowing that I had that effect on him, it made me feel good.
He pressed his body against mine and his sweat rubbed off on me making me feel all sticky and hot between my legs.
"Raaayyyyy, I just got out the shower and you're making me all sweaty!" I whined. As much as I wanted him right now, I didn't want to be late.
"Then we should just take a shower" he said as he wrapped my legs around his waist and carried me to the bathroom not taking no for an answer. He was taking charge and I loved it! It turned me on even more.
"We're going to be late..." I said not really caring at this point. He knew he had got me.
"It'll be quick I promise" he said setting me down on the counter and turning the shower on. "is your dad home?"
I glanced at the clock in my room, 6:49. He should be gone by now, "nope"
"good.." was all he said before he stripped down and pulled me into the shower with him.
***
"it'll be quick" my ass! Not only did we have round 2, we had round 3,4, and 5. We went form round one in the shower, two and three on my bed, four on my bedroom floor, and five in the kitchen when khalil left for school. Don't ask how we ended up in the kitchen, just know that we missed first period. I wasn't that mad with ray considering the loving that he just put on me no more than an hour ago and the fact that I love him.
I was now sitting in second period wondering why ray wasn't in class seeing that we left our houses around the same time and arrived at school the same time also. Come to think of it, why didn't we just ride together? That would have made more sense. I shook the thought off my mind as the bell rung dismissing us from class. I gathered my things and made my out into the hall to my next class. I got a few "hey's" from a few people in the hall, none of them who I was hoping it to be. After scanning a few faces, my eyes landed one the one I was searching for, ray. He was walking in my direction but stopped short when he seen me and went the other way.
"Hey ray!" I called out to him, but he just kept going like he didn't even hear me. Wow that was rude! I mean I was expecting a rude comment or joke, but him ignoring me completely? That hurt more than anything. See this is what I ha-dislike about him. I don't use hate because no matter what he did, I could never bring myself to hate him. Ever.
***
It was the last period of the day and we had about 45 minuets left of school. I was sitting listening to Mr. Frid go on and on about the civil war and all I could think about was ray. I know I said I wouldn't catch feelings but i couldn't help it. When he started opening up to me, showing me who he really was, I fell for him. And the way he treated me when it was just us made me feel like maybe he felt the same way I felt about him. Crazy.
I raised my hand to go to be excused to the restroom, but truth was, I just wanted to get out of earshot of Mr. Frid. I really didn't give a damn about what he was saying.
"Yes,Bre?" Mr. Frid stopped babbling on for a second.
"May i be excused to the restroom please?"
"yes you may." he said smiling. "Now, like I was saying..."
I rolled my eyes as I grabbed my things and left the room. The halls were empty, just how I liked them. No administrators harassing you for a pass, or any other annoying people for that matter. I roamed the hallways enjoying the hollow silence not caring about getting back to class. Not like I was missing much anyway.
I turned down a hall walking pass the gym and my heart sank when I looked into the plexiglass window and seen him. He was practicing with the rest of the basketball team. He smiled when he seen me, and by natural reaction, I smiled back. He called time out and made his way out of the gym over to me.
"Hey, Gorgeous!" he said wrapping his arms around my waist making me blush. And just like that I forgot about that whole incident in the hall earlier.
"Hey, handsome!" I said all giddy. I can't help it, when I'm around him my heart sings.
"Sorry about this morning, I just got carried away.." he said pecking my lips.
"It's fine, besides, I enjoyed it" I said kissing him back and parting my lips centimeters away from his so that they were lingering.
"I know you did" his lips brushed against mine with every word. He brought his hand to my face stroking it and looking down at me lovingly. My knees grew weak and my heart melted in my chest. It was this effect that only he had on me. I wanted so bad to tell him how I felt but I was also afraid of his reaction so i just sat there and enjoyed the moment.
"Aye man what's...taking...you so long.." I heard someone ask from the double doors of the gym. It was one of Rays teammates, Trey I think, but everybody called him Roc. And just as quickly as I was in rays arms, I wasn't any more. He quickly let me go and recomposed himself before pushing Roc back toward the gym.
"Bruh, what was that back there?" I heard roc ask as they entered the gym. And just before the door could close I heard him answer, "nothing man, it was nothing." and those simple words were enough to break me.
One tear escaped my eyes as I made my way out of the school to my all black range rover. I got and dove home as fast as I could with my mind going 100 miles per second. I just don't get it. Was he ashamed of me? Was I ugly or something? I looked in my rear view mirror, naw definitely not ugly. But I sure did feel like it. UGHH, why does he have this effect on me?!
By this point the tears were flowing and I couldn't help it. I've fallen so in love with him over the last three months, how could he not feel the same way about me? I must be broken or something. I finally made it home after 10 minuets and I was surprised to see my brother home so early. He took 3 classes a day, all 3 hours each. I parked in the driveway and made my way inside. I put my keys on the key hook next to the door and dropped my bag on the floor.
"Bre?" I heard Khalil yell from the kitchen.
"yes.." I said hoping he didn't want to talk. I just wanted to go up in my room and cry.
"Come in here..Now!" authority was evident in his voice, but I didn't care for what he had to say. I dragged myself into the kitchen to see him leaning on the refrigerator
Awaiting my arrival.
"Sit!" he said pointing to the stool neatly tucked under the island. I sighed and sat down. "I saw you this morning..." he began to speak.
"yes, you see me every morning.." I say in an annoyed tone. I didn't see where the conversation was going.
"Let me rephrase this...I seen you and ray this morning" I froze in my seat. Oh shit! I thought to myself. I'm so fucking dead.
"What the fuck is wrong with you? Huh? Messing around with ray like some kind of slut! Yea I know this isn't the first time!" his words hit me like a ton of bricks. " Now all those times when you would come home late, and staying out all night, you were with him! Do you know you can get pregnant? Or worse, you can get an STD? What happens when he forgets to strap up and you get pregnant? Huh Bree?!? You obviously don't care for another considering the way you two are at each others necks all the time, so what makes you think you can stand each other for the rest of your lives?!? And why would you want to sleep with him? He's a self centered prick who only cares about what's in between your legs he doesn't want a relationship! And he treats you like shit! Do I have to remind you of all the times when you came home crying because of something ray did?!? He's asshole! And he will never love you!"
I Let his words sink in. Khalil was right, he was an asshole. But I was in love with that asshole. Tears threatened to fall from my eyes as I thought about how ray most likely didn't care about me in the way I did him. I thought about what happened today and how he acted like he didn't care. I felt one tear roll down my cheek.
Khalil looked me in my eyes and his angered filled expression quickly turned into a soft one once realization hit him. "You love him don't you?"
I didn't say anything I just stared blankly at the ground as tears fell unwillingly. He got up and wrapped his arms around me and began rocking me back and forth in attempt to calm me Down. "shhh, don't cry, don't cry..I didn't mean it I'm sorry" his words were a whisper in my ear.
I decided to let the tears fall since there was no point in holding them back. I wish he didn't make me feel this way. I wish I knew what he was thinking. I wish he loved me..
"Why won't he love me?"
Hey guys I tried to post this before I moved and our Internet went off, but with my luck, that didn't happen. So yea I had this written for a while and I have the next couple of chapters written too! *happy dances* lol so yup enjoy. I really like This chapter so give me some feedback not just "omg yay" or "I love this, post more!" Im glad you're enjoying it but I need some detailed comments on what you guys like and don't like so I know where I need improvement. So, with that being siad,
Why do you think ray treats Bre like that?
Buh-bye until next time me loves
-nasia
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