My Heart, the one who's in control

My Demons In Sleep

I find it hard to sleep at night. As my head is crowded with your face, voice and the memories we've expected together swirling around my head. As well as my demons, Shouting and Screaming for attention like a toddler, saying everyone would be better without me, Whispering and Luring me into it's trap, saying it's all my fault.

I have trouble sleeping at night my friend, because of the Monsters and Demons from my inner-being longing to destroy my sanity, For I feel this deep inside me my friend, I feel like I'm being watched, by something that is longing to see my downfall into nothingness, to see the shell of the person I once.

My friend wont you help me, I fear the darkness that surrounds me during the night. I fear to turn in my bed, to open my eyes in the dark abyss, in case I see my demon with his lingering smile, What if he hurts my brothers, sisters and friends? What if he makes me hurt my Dad, Mum or all of my family? What would he do?

I can't let him do that, I must be strong so he can't in, I must sleep my good friend.

I mustn't listen to their venomous words designed for piercing my heart.

Just sleep.

I can cry my friend it's show you I'm still here needing your help.

I mustn't do the things they whisper so softly into my ears.

Just close my eyes and count sheep.

My friend they said that I could see my Pop and my music teacher Mr Boyd, they told me I could still look over my brothers and sisters. But don't be alarmed my dearest friend, for I know the pain I would cause for my family and friend, for I know the pain so well, for so long. That's why I must sleep to keep my family safe and my demons at bay.

waiting for help to come, I can't lose my family and friends. I need to keep them safe from the damaged, broken place I must call my mind. But the demons, the Monsters. their getting stronger, their killing me slowly, their numbing me.... their winning... I'm letting them win. I need to sleep. To battle them. To win this war my friend.

(Author's Note)

Hey, Thank you for reading this. It's just a bit about what I'm going thought and I know a lot of people are going thought a lot as well. I wish to tell the people who are going thought something like this, that it's worth to talk to someone about it. I know it's hard to open up to someone tell them your insecurities. It literally took until I broke down in front of class to talk to someone, So I'm here anyone needs someone to talk to.

And feel free to point out any mistakes in my writing, Bye.

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