Almost

Wakas

"A-Are you sure, Raina?" She was hesitant to ask.

I immediately nodded and excused myself. Agad naman siyang pumayag at sinabing palitan na ang suot ko na robe, at isuot na ang gown ko. Tsaka nalang daw tatapusin ang paglalagay ng kaunti pang makeup sa aking mukha pagkatapos makapagpalit.

Everyone was busy with their own duties. Ang ilan ay nililinis na ang mga natitirang alikabok sa sulok para naman mas maging presentable ang bahay. Nagkalat ang mga photographer sa loob, cameras and lights were everywhere. They were about to corner me for a picture taking but I immediately declined their offer politely and gladly, naintindihan naman nila na hindi pa ako prepared.

I stepped down on our grandstaircase and scanned the whole place. The grand staircase was even stunning with the red carpet in it, and the chandelier above. The receiving area looked elegant with the flower arrangement, too. Everything's in their right places. Patuloy akong naglakad pababa, at doon ay sumalubong sa akin ang iilang mga guests para sa kasal. I spent time greeting all of them, at natagalan din sa iba dahil nagkaroon pa konting kumustahan at kwentuhan.

"How are you after your breakup with him?" The mala-paparazzi guest asked me without hesitation. I just found it rude for her to ask me about that topic. Kasi una sa lahat, hindi kami close. Second, I don't even know her. And third, as far as I know, no one invited her for this wedding.

But her question made me think a bit. Kumusta na nga ba ako? I breathed heavily. I had a hard time moving on, to be honest. Mahirap mag-move on, pero mas mahirap kung hindi naman kayo. 'Yung purong landian lang, walang linaw kung papanagutan ka ba o hindi. In short : Kung wala namang kayo. I smiled bitterly.

I cleared my throat before answering. "Hindi naman naging kami," I smiled and responded cooly at her. She shot her brows and pursed her lips, preventing herself from laughing.

"Oh, oo nga pala. I remember how he denied you, as his girlfriend... kung paano niya itinanggi na mahal ka niya." she looked at me from head to toe. Damn, is she one of his ex-flings? Tanong ko sa sarili. I'm glad I didn't think out loud, I don't want to make a scene. I don't wanna ruin this day. "Kaya pala..."

"Kaya pala ano?" I responded. She's wearing her white cocktail dress, and I must admit, she looks like an angel. But the attitude? I don't want to talk about it anymore. Let's just stick with her physical appearance, tutal, mukhang 'yon lang naman ang maganda.

"Kaya pala... kaya pala sa iba nag-propose." She smiled at me. I swallowed the lump forming on my throat immediately.

Ganoon kabilis? Nag-propose siya sa kaniya ng ganoon lang kabilis? Nang wala man lang pagdadalawang isip? Nagawa niya 'yon sa kaniya ng basta basta nalang? Bakit parang ang dali para sa kaniya? Ganoon ba katindi 'yung pagmamahal niya sa babaeng 'yon?

Eh ako, simple lang naman ang hinihingi ko noon, ah? I didn't ask him to propose to me. I didn't ask him a grand proposal or what. Pero bakit sobrang hirap para sa kaniya?