for now

nothing lasts forever

i believed we were forever,
sealing the deal with an innocent kiss,
"nothing lasts forever" they said,
living in the moment, thats all it was,
in my heart it seemed to be that way,
forever and always, we used to say
people change, he's not the same
"i'm ok, don't worry please"
my heart knew otherwise but i trusted him,
anticipating the moment to see him again,
wrapping his gift with full of admiration,
christmas and new year was around the corner,
he calls, i pick up
"it's not the same"
how so?
"i want you back, but not right now"
why?
"i slept with another person that wasn't you"
you didn't love me enough?
he stood in silent, choking on his own guilt
my heart dropping to my stomach,
hearing it beat from the other side,
my ears ringing,
the ground shaking beneath me,
i forgot how to breath,
how to speak,
how to move,
i wanted all of this to be a dreadful nightmare
wake up, wake up, please wake up
"say something, anything"
i don't want you anymore,
"please don't do this,"
you're dead to me,
"what will i do without you?"
i regret everything i ever did with you,
"i don't get mad, i get even" he lastly said,
the only thing he kept his word on,
showing his wrath,
the only way he can express himself,
making everything seem one sided,
you're hurting i know, i know,
the only way to disguise your pain is to not care,
you care too much, but just don't want to anymore,
i might not love you anymore,
but thanks for the memories,
i'll always think about them,
for now,