You have met someone with a very attractive appearance or amazing communication skills Haven't you? And oh now you Catch yourself thinking about that one person and you smile at that 'stupid thought’ but all of a sudden, music plays and gosh! This song is an exact portrayal of your current romantic situation. Then you both somehow get connected and now everything is how it was earlier but you still can't spot what's making you feel so complete, how was this feeling not there before? All the romantic poetry that bored you, the kissing clips in movies that disgusted you and all the couples that looked so stupid in the parks now make more sense than quantum physics. You both may have screwed people before but this time when you do it with this person, it's like you have a completely different amount of oxytocin and dopamine release. She is in love with your hobbies and your ambitions, she loves it when you sing, she loves your paintings and is very concerned with your past stories, and swears to never do what people did to you earlier. Now you feel like you have found what will complete your human existence. You hear people who tell you that humans cheat in love, but you know that your partner is an angel and is far superior than average partners, you go home tell her this and laugh at how people can't even make a relationship work out and promise each other to hold hands till eternity. You are not telling this person but you now have these marriage dreams of yours filled with couple routines and beautiful babies. And when you tell your partner about this, she'll laugh it out...and this is a bit awkward but it's alright what could possibly go wrong? that person loves you, right? It's been few months, and she suddenly tells you about this funny guy from class or office that she's been texting, and all you could think of is killing him, well let me introduce you to “Jealousy” it's your oxytocin going the other way around, doing opposite to what it does usually and it's quite normal. It's been an year of you two being together, and things have legitimately changed a bit. You've had major arguments couple of times over statements like ‘you've changed’ or ‘why don't you tell about me to your friends and family’ or ‘you’ve been talking to him alot’ or 'you don’t have time for me’ etcetera, etcetera and your partner isn't an angel anymore. You post her picture on Instagram on her birthday and instead of thanking she yells at you, she also has stopped commenting and has literally never posted anything and she's suspiciously desperate denying your relationship with her to people who ask her about you and when you ask her she has statements like 'let the right time come’ or 'people create misunderstandings baby’ or 'can't let mom and dad know about us they won't like it’. But it's alright it’s just social media or society and at the end of the day she loves you anyway...right? This continues for few more months. Now you're going to your office or maybe class and suddenly you notice this person who is so amazing, you smile at her she smiles back and yes it feels good you got butterflies in your belly. You come home call your partner, a fine conversation for few minutes and an argument takes birth out of nowhere. And as slowly time passes, you notice changes in your partner along with suspicious behaviour and rumours from her colleagues or classmates, though you try not to believe it because she loves you... right? Then you get restless, this urge and you finally decide to confront your partner. And the moment you bring it up, she bursts out in rage and make statements like ‘you don't believe me’ or 'are you calling me a whore’ or 'maybe you're seeing someone else’ or 'baby i don't admire anyone else in this world but you’ and a small duration of crying that feels so realistic and you give the argument up. Few days later, you hear a new rumour and it's about this funny guy she's been mentioning, you again decide to confront and yes the emotional breakdown happens again. And you've somewhere started to believe that maybe she's pure and you are the one at fault who is having butterflies in gut by seeing someone else. You hear a rumour again,but now you've fought so much that you can literally predict each other's comebacks and these small arguments have become boring and you also realise that this once so pure relationship of yours is on the brink of collapse. And now you're getting to hear things about her that are hard to digest like 'someone sitting at the bench behind her was moving his hands on her back under the table and she didn't say anything and maybe enjoyed it' and the rumour is from such accurate sources, you go home, cry a little and realise your partner has committed infidelity, the person you lifted up in every situation, the person who once used to apologise to you for every single mistake, the Person who desperately claimed of loving you and being loyal to you from the very core of her heart was cheating on you, she was corrupted by a sweet talking dick head who actually used to flirt with her and she fell for him but he considerably has no interest in taking care of her. In this situation you could be one of the two kinds of humans. First, the one who'll raise a voice and seek revenge from the bitch or second kind, the one who'll pick her calls act normal and try best not to bring it up. If you're the first kind then you probably have some ego issues and you will do anything to avoid the feeling of being cheated because of self lack and considering the fact that all the time you invested in this person got flushed down the sewers. But, if you are the second type you also think that she cheated because you were being an asshole since few months forgetting the fact the she desperately denied your relationship with her publicly. But, now you don't care about that, now you think this is her life and she is free to fuck anyone and you are nobody to stop her ( as if she was going to stop) and you let her live as she wants without questioning her and swallowing all the pain. And if you are the second kind, believe me... you're not rare and you will probably end up suffering depression, self harm or will let the person treat you like shit. Do you remember when she last asked you to sing or let you sing without telling you to stop halfway, or when did she last appreciate how you look or what you do? And now her desperation to deny the relationship publicly makes sense, now you know she's been talking to someone else for hours on phone even though she said mom never lets her call a friend, and that you are probably not the best guy in the world as she told you that you were. A fort you built with such heartful of affection, collapsed in a single blink. Now, you hate the playlist in your phone that she suggested, but you listen to those songs anyway. But, then you meet friends and you realise there are still people who love you. And after few parties you realise, you never actually needed that person and all that heartbreak became a joke from the past. And this once you go clubbing with your friends and you meet someone with a very attractive appearance or amazing communication skills. And, oh! now you catch yourself thinking about that one person and you smile at that 'stupid thought’ but all of a sudden, music plays and gosh! This song is an exact portrayal of your current romantic situation.
And there you go again.
Good luck this time.
