• Random • Thoughts •

• I'm Scared •

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So like, my best friend Rayne62905 came out to her parents. Technically not yet but tomorrow they'll know. But anyway I'm trying to convince myself that I should do it too because I don't want myself stressing over having to hide myself anymore.

But, my biggest fear is being alone. Millions of thoughts are rushing through my mind because what if she hates the idea. I already have a seemingly homophobic brother. (Seemingly because idk)

My mom and sister are the only ones there for me I think. My sister already knows and she's completely fine with it but my mom doesn't know and right now I can just blurt it out and get it over with but my stupid fear keeps getting in the way.

I'm trying to convince myself not to do it but I know I'd be so much happier if I did it. The worst things that could possibly happen is that she hates it or she doesn't understand it.

I feel as if her not understanding it is worse for me than her hating it but that's just my mind in all its weirdness.

I am now convincing myself not to do it again but like, it's all good I guess.

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