Stiles X Reader (BOOK TWO)

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I tried to get myself to my feet to see it they were alright but the second I tried to stand I would instantly collapse again...I was just too exhausted.I looked up at Scott who's ears were bleeding 'Scott!' I said worried desperately trying to stand up 'I'm Okey N/N relax I'm okey' he said while he painfully got up and helped Issac stand too.

Stiles walked over to us carefully with the others witch made me sad... very sad.... they're scared,I can smell it

'Don't be scared....please' I said with the please being barely audible.'How did you do that?' Allison asked walking to me slowly and my eye's watered but no tears fell 'I...I..I don't know' I said forcing myself to stand but I was still unable which frustrated me to the point of screaming and they ALL flinched which practically took a chunk out of my heart with the flinch

I just looked at them with the most pleading eye's Hoping someone would help...but help never came,not until one of the tears waiting on the brim or my eye decided to overflow and fall down my cheek

Scott pushed threw helping me stand,my legs held me up for a little while until they just gave up the second he let go of me,I braced myself for the pain of having my knees slam into the rough dirt underneath me but he caught me just in time 'He grabbed my waist with a tight grip and Issac did the same from the other side helping me walk 'let's go see what's up with the twin's' Allison said and everyone went... Scott and Issac helped me to a bench that was against the fence and they sat me down

'go check on the twin's' I said 'are you sure?' Issac asked 'Yeah I'm okey just....go' I said resting my elbow's on my legs while looking at his feet he stood there for a moment or two before heading with Scott.I lifted my head to watch them jogging lightly to the others.I slouched back down resting my exhausted body.I placed my head in my hands looking at a recently formed puddle not far from me...It started to ripple slowly and then more and more,I felt the drop's of cold water fall on my head and my slightly exposed back I leaned back against the fence and let the ice cold rain slowly fall on my burning face relaxing me...I felt it drip down my face and slowly mix with my smudged makeup and blood .... it was getting stronger but I didn't bother.The rain made my dress stick to me like glue,the torn peace's of fabric acting like bandage's for the recently formed scar's on my body

I was so consumed in the rain and the constant screaming of worry,anger and confusion in my head that I didn't even notice someone standing in front of me 'Y/N?' a soft voice said I looked in the direction of the voice. I looked at Stiles who's features gave off a scared and worried look,I just layed my head back onto the fence as he sat beside me 'look at me' he said and I did 'He had a rag In his hand, slightly dampened by the rain,it was torn from some familiarly unfamiliar fabric... he came closer to me and put a hand on my cheek and started wiping away the blood from my nose,cheek and lip and I winced even tho the gashes were almost gone

I moved my head away from him not wanting to look at him 'are you okey...' I stopped him before he could even finish 'don't... I'm so pathetic.... everyone's always saving me.... I'm always at hospitals,and I'm weak...I always cry.... I'm sick of beging the weak one.... I'm sick of everyone always looking at me like I'm wounded!' I unintentionally raised my voice 'Y/N...' he tried to talk but I didn't let him '...But the sad thing is that....if you don't look at me with pity you look at me with fear.... It's awfull!.... you're friends should NEVER be scared of you....I hate it!..' I said with despair in my voice '...It kill's me seeing you scared... especially of me!' I said frustrated 'are you scared of me Stiles!?'....he didn't answer

And the silence that followed was deafening

I anticipated a answer that I knew I didn't want to hear.I tried to read him,but he was blank....completely blank.

I just closed my eyes and released the breath I didn't even know I was holding in, disappointment radiating off of me like the beam of light from a torch in a dark room.I stood up shakily but steadily taking a deep breath before walking away leaving him there,alone,cold,in the rain....but then again, didn't I always run away from my problem's

I walked to my heals and picked them up and walked to the rest of the group.'Are they okey?' I asked worried 'yeah they'll be fine were just taking them to Alan' Lydia said 'lets go' Allison said and we all started walking until Scott stopped me and everyone turned around facing us 'Y/N maybe you should go home' He said and I was confused 'Why I'm fine I..' Allison cut me off 'No seriously Y/N get some rest' She said worried 'Fine' I said angrily pushing threw them and walking away.I could hear them chattering behind me but I didn't bother listen

But all I wanted was Stiles.....I was waiting for him... needing him to tell me he wasn't scared.... I wanted him to run after me....I needed him to run after me....but he never did

I walked home... ripped up.... scratched.... bloody..... broken

As I walked I could feel the rough rock's and probably glass rip the bottom of my feet,the callouses forming from the rough road...the rain drenched me from top to bottom in heavy water making my hair sticking to my body like tape while it blurred my vision

After quite a while of walking and then stopping to regain some energy I finally saw my house in the distance..I was hoping my mother wasn't awake because she would 1000000000% be worried out of her fucking mind

I walked into my house and my mum was in the kitchen writing something 'hey sweetie how wa..OH MY GOD Y/N ARE YOU ALRIGHT?!' she asked worriedly running to me 'not now' I said blankly walking upstairs quietly not even looking at her.I walked straight into the bathroom and Locked the door...I turned on the water and I started to fill my bath with water.... while I waited for it to fill I pealed the remaining peace's of my once beautiful but now bloodied and ripped dress off and threw it on the floor

I looked in the mirror..my cheek's were stained by mascara making me look like a depressed window,my skin was frale and scratched,my lip red and bruised and my nose bloody and my right eyebrow cut..I brushed my teeth and washed my face feeling the sting of soap on a open wound the water was read and black.I walked to the tub and stepped into the slightly too hot water and lied down letting the water come up to my lips the comforting pressure consuming me.

The voices grew louder and louder and louder until I took a deep breath and then.... nothing

It was so quiet under the water only the bubbles from my mouth giving me company...I stayed under for what felt like almost 5 minutes...more than I ever thought I could... I forced myself to stay under until the burning in my lungs grew unbearable,until my head felt dizzy... Until I was on the brink of passing out.... until the need for oxygen was unavoidable

I pushed my head to the surface taking in the cold air while panting heavily....

But the Voices were gone,I was blank...the only thought that was left was "what am I?"

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Oh my god hello!

I know I've been away FOREVER but I'm back now,I wanted to wish you a MERRY CHRISTMAS (if you celebrate it) AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR

So for those who don't know this is book 2 of McCall so If you didn't read tgat that go check it out this will make more sense

So I hope you're doing good and I wanted to thank you for the ENDLESS support and love and patience I get on a daily it really means the world to me thank you💚

So thank you a for reading I love you and...

I'll see y'all later bye💚