I know that we broke up long before Christmas. A month before really. But Christmas was all wrong. I didn't want it to come this year. I didnt want to think about it.
I stood staring down at your stocking stuffer, and selfishly I wanted to give your family their stocking stuffers, and keep yours, to show you how I felt.But I didnt.
I was good.
I gave you what i had bought. What I had put thought into. Do you even remember the significance of it? Probably not. But I gave it to you anyways.
And a part of me was hoping you'd acknowledge me after that. You had to, right?
Just a messaged "merry Christmas". That's all I wanted.
But of course you couldnt oblige.
I cried myself to sleep for 3 nights waiting.
You dick.
I knew everyone's gifts. I didnt want to decorate the tree or bake Christmas goodies.
I baked nuts and bolts without you. And I felt miserable the entire time.
I pretended to be happy for a week.
I hate that you couldnt even bother to wish me a measly little merry Christmas. But, I'm gonna wish you a happy new years. Cuz I still love you. And I still miss you.
But I will NEVER trust you with anything ever again.
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All the Things I Never Said
RandomHere's to you, darling (sarcasm intended). Now that it's over, I have a few things that I feel like telling you. things I couldnt before.