*Hello ladies and gents, for those of you who read my bio you can see I have KPOP ships listed there. If you haven't I'll just be blunt, I've transitioned into the KPOP scene and I have been trying to post fan fiction about it. In this fanfic I will only refer to others using honorifics when directly speaking to them or just saying Hyung on its own. I hope some of you can stick with me through this journey, but if it's not your cup of tea I understand. Anyway, let's get into this, shall we?*
(Felix's POV)
I just got eliminated... I can't say I didn't see this coming. I was on the chopping block after Minho's elimination. As soon as I made the mistake in "Ya Ya Ya" it was a given. After all JYP would never let someone who had the possibility of messing up on stage debut. Even though I did see it coming it didn't stop the tears when I saw my team members. The team I worked so hard with toward one common goal. Bitterly, I thought if this was how Minho must have felt.
After the shoot I was sent to go pack up my stuff and leave the Stray Kids dorm, while the others stayed for a briefing on the next episode. I felt this thick haze clouding my brain as I went through the routine of packing my stuff. After I had finished packing I set all my things in the living room and took a look at the place I had been staying the past month or so. Where all of us shared such sweet and fond memories.
I was brought out of my thoughts by a knock at the door. Figuring it was one of the staff members coming to make sure I was packed and ready to return to the trainee dorm, I grabbed my stuff and went to open the door. After a bit of a struggle I finally succeeded in opening the door, only to be met with a shock. Instead of one of the staff members it was Minho. This in itself was surprising to say the least.
Ever since his elimination from the survival show no one had seen nor heard anything from the singer, now turned rapper I guess. He had cut off all contact with us, never picking up calls or returning texts. It left all of us distraught, considering how loving this Hyung was. In a way he was kind of like a mom, but more laidback... like a wine-mom or something. Yet, after disappearing on us for roughly a week here he was in all his glory, standing in the doorway.
Without a word he silently held his arms open in front of me, and gave me one of his loving, patient smiles. After all that had happened since last seeing him I couldn't find the heart to be mad at him. Without a word I walked into his embrace and laid my head on his shoulder. Wordlessly, he wrapped one arm around my shoulders and the other carded through my hair. "It's okay to cry." Is all he said. It's funny how four little words could manage to completely tear down my walls.
Before I knew what was happening I felt tears run down my face. I cried thinking about my elimination, about Minho ignoring us, about my family back home in Australia, my secrets, anything that had been bugging me since the show began. We both just stayed there in the doorway for a bit, nothing being said beside me saying "Hyung" a few times and the latter giving me soft assurances. There was nothing else we could have said. When I managed to calm down a bit Minho gave me a small smile before grabbing my luggage, despite my protests.
"Let's head over to the dorms, I have a surprise to help cheer you up." He said before leading me out of our old apartment building. Instead of calling a cab, we decided to take a nice stroll, considering the trainee dorms weren't that far away. We both walked in a comfortable silence. It was both calming and familiar to me. Before my elimination Minho had always volunteered to help me with my Korean. I was really grateful for this because anyone besides Chan still struggled a bit with my poor Korean. So just having him near me was comfort enough.
Eventually, we both arrived at the trainee dorms. I felt a sense of dread come over me as I stared at the normal looking apartment building. After walking through this door I would except the fact that I failed to debut, that I won't be with Chan, Changbin, Jeongin, or the others anymore... I was shocked out of my thoughts by a hand interlacing with mine. I looked to my right and saw Minho giving me a comforting smile before saying, "I'll be right here with you, you're not alone."
I looked at him in awe for a moment before nodding my head. We both made our way into the building and up the stairs. While we made our way up Minho began to talk. "I know you were probably expecting one of the staff members to come and escort you to your new living quarters," he didn't wait for a reply before he spoke again.
"They were supposed to but they had an emergency to handle at the company so they asked if I could do it. It was a pleasant surprise to figure out that you were going to share a dorm with me. I used to have another trainee there but a day after I returned he quit the trainee life. It's been just me in there for the last week. I won't lie it's quite... lonely. But I mean at least we won't have to share the dorm with anyone but us." I didn't really talk to Minho during his mini break down of what the living situations were.
I had to agree with him though that it would nice for just the two of us to share a dorm. Normally trainees were stuck in dorms with about of 5 or more people. While a bit unusual I found I didn't mind the change. Upon hearing the revelation of only two of us sharing the dorm I figured there was only one room in the dorm, I didn't mind though as I had grown used to always sleeping in the same room with others.
Upon reaching my new home for the time being I felt my gut twist in a bundle of anxiousness. "Here we are." He said quite enthusiastically, despite the situation.When Minho slid the door open I felt my eyes begin to tear up. Inside was a little banner with my name on it. There was a bunch of food laid out on the small table the company provided. Silently, I walked past Minho toward the table.
After making my way to the table I saw a neat card laying in the center of the food. On the cover of the card was a hand drawn picture of a koala in the jungle, though it looked sad. Upon opening the card I saw another picture of the koala, but this time it had a cat leaning next to it and it seemed so much happier. In the card was written,
Dear Felix,
Though you experience hardships, they will not last forever. Chan saw something in you, he chose you for a reason. Don't let the regret of failure stop you from reaching the success you deserve. Even when you fall down, or feel like you can't go on, I'll be with you every step of the way. Because I care about you. Just like everyone else does.
Love,
Minho
While I was reading the card I started to cry again. My tears slowly starting to stain the beautiful words written for me. Without any hesitation I ran to Minho who was currently coming back after putting my luggage into our room. "Felix, are you okay?" I heard him ask in a worried tone, returning my sudden hug. "I'm here for you to Hyung." Was all I said to him as I kept hugging him. I felt a small laugh erupt in his chest, shaking me a bit. Even though I could here the laughter in his voice I could also feel water hitting my head, I decided not to mention it though.
After hugging for a few more minutes Minho dragged me back to the table so I could indulge, and eat my feelings away. We talked about of few things but never asked the questions we both knew needed answers. After all the food was gone we both sat in the living room just listening to the sounds around us. Next door I could hear some of the trainees running around like children. I could hear the sound of cars driving past our building, set on a place much different from where I lay. I could here the crickets, their faint chirping in the liveliness of the night. Despite the old, comforting sounds of the area around me I felt myself get a bit antsy.
Minho seemed to sense my unease as well as he soon turned to me asking, "is everything okay?" I looked at him before considering how I should answer. I could just say everything was fine and avoid any kind of conflict, or drama that was sure to come from it, but I couldn't stop the burning curiosity deep in the pit of my stomach. I wasn't sure I wanted to hear the answers to these questions but I couldn't just live in the dark about this forever. "Minho, why did you leave? Why did you come back for someone like me?"
*and that ladies and gents is the first chapter of Will it Be Alright? I hope to update more on it in the near future. Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed and I will see all of you next time, Bye!*
