You pushed me to the depth,
And I let myself sink down the sea of death
I badly wanted to breathe-
Just as how I want you so I took a grip
We were to end our lives together
Before you pushed me you swore to follow
I was ready for that sweet surrender,
Because nothing felt right than be with you
So I trusted,
And waited,
And endured,
Because you promised
Only to feel fooled,
Neglected,
Betrayed,
And abandoned
You changed your mind at the last minute,
And didn't jump after me,
I thought you realized this life is not a waste
So I waited for you to save me.
But I was wrong
You wanted to live alone
You wanted that all along
And I foolishly fell into your words
I looked up to you painfully,
Helplessly,
Hopelessly,
Breathlessly
I saw your silhouette watching me drown
And that was the most deadly thing
I felt weak, I wanted to succumb
My dreams were all but delusions.
In that blue, serene and beguiling-
I was ready to offer myself wholly
I kept my eyes on the figure you've become-
The one who I never thought would put me in an endless chasm
The resonance of death filled my ears
Then suddenly it turned into a rhythmic sound
And with just a blink of an eye, you were lost in my sight
The shadow you casted was defeated by a glaring light
And that's when I realized
I don't need you or anyone to save me in this life
I fell not to die-
I fell to know how to be alive.
I know how to swim
So blinded that I forgot I can
I know how to swim
And I'll rise over and over again
07/10/18
