It's easier if I don't say his name. If I do, it's like I'm surrendering to my feelings. I don't want to like another guy. I don't want to be able to move on so quickly. But I have and I should be proud of that. Except, if I speak his name, I lose a small part of my innocence. I'm not sure how or why, but it's best if he's kept a secret. From the world. From myself, too.
- 12.28.18 about him
