so currently im on a three day trip, final day tomorrow- ( Dec 26 )
So for Christmas, lemme tell a beautiful Christmas story
I go through my dusty Wattpad library, and lo and behold
I have my home conversion books-
ya know, the ones keeping ya holy and pure.
because as y'all or not all of you are aware-
I'm pretty b i
But big big parents didn't like that, so y'all know that lil kimberly worked really hard to pray le gay away
and so ensued my bible phase
I remember this really vividly now, because I used to be in a Christian School and with a Christian class with Christian families
Still pretty Christian now
bUT I DON'T TORTURE MYSELF NOW JEEZ
but lil kimberly
ooh that lil girl was desperate
i saved books condemning it, saying it was a product of big big no role models, not enough nurturing, tHE ANTICHRIST WTF- and psychosis.
and you know lil kim lapped that shit up like pussy nectar™™™
so began the self hatred phase
and boi oh boio i don't know how i kept with that
reading that like a bible- proceeding to feel bad- to doing fucked up crap- then repeating
now after a while of beating myself no joke
we enter the phase where i hate myself, but it's more widely accepted phase™™™
big big emo phase
i listened to mcr, tøp, fob, p!atd-
i fucking loved hating myself
but lil bitch woke up
and i had the best epiphany
" kim you fucked up kid stop this "
okay just kidding it was this
" kim, don't you want to receive love? "
and boi oh boi i lept up, put my hair up and fucking stopped reading the damn books
I cried when I needed to
I fucking stopped hanging with people who kept giving me bullshit
I stopped hanging with raeka, hoe that would cut and tell everyone
I said " fuck off " to kimberly and became Angela.
I was high on self confidence
but now i'm a freshman, and i see how far I've gone.
And now I'm brave enough to accept that being Angela Kimberly is fine
I'm not one or the other.
I'm that good Christian girl, and I'm that fuck up who's happy
I'm just human, and you don't shane someone for being human
but i enjoy pineapples on pizza and that fucks me up more-
