Today was a good day at school, my friend Nhy made jokes about how "bad" my mom is and it made me crack up. When I came home I ate a good ass sub cuz im fat like that, and i went to the corner store cuz i wanted beef jerky and i saw one of my cousins that i haven't seen in 3 years and i was without a doubt so happy to see her. Now at the moment im feeling the emotion of sadness i love someone and i feel like they don't love me back...it really hurts and my night terrors are starting up again...i keep seeing myself dying in these dreams and i don't wanna die yet...at least not that i know of...anyway i love him and he doesn't care bout me at all or that's how i feel like he feels about me...i don't if i would ever be happy again
