Reflection

i see you

i wanna scream at the sky until it cracks open.

i wanna stomp until i fall through the earth.

the silent cries at night, the begging of forgiveness, the aching of the heart.

the pain is unbearable.

it ripped my heart out of my chest.

it took a part of me that i could never get back.

it took me apart.

it watched me fail trying to keep myself together.

it.

he.

i don't blame him.

parts of me want to, parts of me tells me its my fault.

crest shaped moons in the palms of my hand from digging my nails into them.

i did that.

i wanted to feel even more pain.

thin lines on my wrist.

i did that.

i told myself i wouldn't break, but i did. how could i just lie to myself like that?

i stare at the mirror in disgust.

what a haunting reflection.

my eyes are pitch black, skin pale, & bruised lips.

wait,

i'm in love with the sight..