Run for the dark

Chapter 1 The past

I hear someone call me it's my best friend Kiki. I was at the hospital sitting on a chair next to her. She is talking to me, but I am not listening "earth to violet" she says while poring my arm. "Yes" I say knowing she was irritated because I wasn't listening. Why are you always so distracted? "I don't know I guess I just like living in my own world". "Yeah but I can't live in that wold so you better tell me what you were thinking" she says in a irritated voice. "I was thinking how worried I am". "I'm scared, scared to lose you and I'm afraid what i am going to do when your gone". She was four years older but that didn't matter she was my best friend and I had known her since I was tree. But now she was dying from cancer and she wasn't going to get better. When I first heard she had cancer and probably was going to die I had a little hope that she was going to get better but she didn't. I cried a lot but decided that I wasn't going to cry when she still was alive. "Flower" she said to snap me out of my daze. Flower was the name she mostly called me by. "Yes I said soft" I didn't look at her because I was scared. "I have a present for you but you can't open it". She gave me a wrapt box. "But when can I open it then". A silences was between us for a few seconds.
"When I'm dead" she says soft while she puts on a sad smile.

Two months later she died right in front of me. We were in the hospital room alone. I saw her cry, she cried like she was going to die. I know she was in pain a lot of pain. She sad with a soft voice "flower please live" then she gasped for air while trying to finish her sentence. "Live for the both of us" she was going to say something but didn't finish. I started running through the hallways screaming for help after a few seconds there were nurses running towards me and i said wile catching my breath " help my friend is dying". They started running towards the room I came from I wanted to run after them but an other nurse grabbed my wrists and said I had to wait in the guest room. I heard the woman in the office call her parents. They came in about ten minutes that's a record cause they live fifteen minutes from the hospital. I was just sitting in a corner it was probably twenty minutes of a uncomfortable silence. I saw a nurse walk towards Kiki's parents she was saying something to them but I only could hear tree of them. She is dead.

She is dead the same words just hunted me over and over again. I started running I had to get away, away from everything. I just want to disappear. Without knowing where I was. I saw a huge tree ore I was just small I don't know I wasn't really thinking about that. She was dead

Kikki was just a ten year old girl she had a life and a future. I just wish I was the one that died.

On the day after the funeral I went to visit her parents and sister. When I enter the living room I saw a small box with my name on it. I think her mother saw me look at the box " it's for you she always said that only you could open it" she said.
She handed it over to me. It looked like she didn't wanted to hand it over. But she did after fighting with her inner thoughts. I was ready to leave cause her parents started to cry again. I Walked towards the door and was ready to walk home but someone grabbed my arm. I turned around and saw a blonde haired girl the same age as me. It what's Kiki's sister Charlotte she looked like a zombie. I said " hi Charlotte". She only looked angry at me and didn't say anything. In a couple of seconds I saw her head turn red I know what was coming next she was going to explode and let out all her anger at one time. She started screaming "you took her away she was my sister but she always made more time for you I hate you because you took my sister away".

Suddenly a guilty feeling was inside me. I started running with the small box in one of my hands. Halfway to my house I stopped and sat down on a bench. I slowly started crying and got lost in deep thoughts.

Why didn't I do something?
Why did you let her die?
Why didn't I die?

Hi this is my first book I'll hope you will enjoy it.