him i guess

John

So at this point i just want to write well type as i go things stat to flow in my head with im a little stressed, despessed, and other wise. At the moment im listening to music Billie Ellish my heart shivers for her, i wanted to write about what i been thinking about for the past two in half weeks. So theres this guy his name is 'john' i really like and he told me he liked me back but i wasnt really sure what to do because i dont know about relationships but when it comes to advice im the one to comes to and its pretty good advice but i dont know how. So yea i have been know him sice 6th grade great start i was still a shy ugly peace of shit, which that didnt change one bit, i always had a little crush on him but he never knew i barley knew i existed until a little bit more into the year. After middle school you we go to high school but we didnt go to the same high school, at first, so i mived houses then i went to his school but at the time i forgot about him and i thought i would see him again. I was wrong obviously. The first class i had with him was math (barf), he sat across the the other side of the right of me four rows over towards the bcak of the class but i didnt notice him when i first started the class after a couple of weeks pasted the teacher let us switch desk i didnt move cuz there was no reason to because i didnt know anyone, but guess who did move him and guess where he moved at right freaking behind made me wanna throw up and shit my pants everyday (jkjk) or not. So we started talking you know as friends but you know it felt good to have a friend in the class for once. So years pasted by he got a gf and they had been dating for years come to find out but that was ok i knew it was gonna work out because i looked like freaking troll, we were still friends that didnt change, the only bad thing about him that i seen was, no not cheating something far worse we were in school and in the middle of them arguing i walked pasted them and waved but he didnt see me, she trys to walk away and he grabs her arm and yanks her back to finish to converstion, i should have stepped in to say something or stop it but i didnt i just kept walking like a scary person. The next year passes by and we dont talk as much its just a hello in the hall or outside when we see eachother and then the next after that we stopped talking all togther but freshman year we i gave him my number so i was hoping one day he would call me but never did. Until one day when i least epected it he calls me but its an unknow number i answer it anyway so i answer and he says hello and he has this dreamy deep deep voice that i havnt heard before he said hey babe i said who is this he said girl you know who this is i said john he said see you know who your bae is we both stated laughing, then we stayed on the phone for about 1 hour if wasnt long but it was the best and longest hour i had.