Why am I like this?

Part 1

Hi, you're about to read the story of my life. No, I'm not gonna say that my life ended, because it didn't, I am happily still alive. Well in some way I am happy that I am alive, and in other, I'm not.

My life's been a mess, from when I was born till today, and I think it's meant to be like that. Through my life I've been through a lot and I learned from my mistakes, well not from all of them.

My name is Maggie Dallas. I am currently 21 years old. I'm living with my mom and stepdad. My brother moved to Minnesota so he cam work there. My parents got divorce when I was 4 months and a year ago my mom got married for the second time. I'm not that close with my family. I mean we are close but I can't tell my mom what I'm doing, or if I have a boyfriend or anything like that. She is really overprotective and that's one thing I don't like about her, I don't like my stepdad and I always get in a fight with my brother. And my dad lives far away from me so i barely see him.

Anyways, now I'm going to tell you a bit of my childhood.

I went to kindergarten when I was six. I was very good kid. I always listened to my mom, and I was a bit shy. First day of kindergarten I met Laurel. She was beautiful, and I knew in that moment that she will become my best friend. She had brown eyes and a short brown hair. And she was wearing glasses. She came to me and asked me if I want to play with her and of course I wanted because I didn't know anyone else. Then a boy came to us and asked us if he can ay with us. And in that moment, the three of us became best friends. Alex, Laurel and Maggie.
The year of kindergarten was finished and it was time for us to go to first grade. I hoped that I will go to same class as Alex and Laurel and we did. Four years flew by so fast and we were no longer best friends. I mean Alex found ' better company ' but me and Laurel were still besties. It was hard period of my life. Remembering all great stuff me and Alex did. He lived house next to mine and every day we hang out, and now, it was all gone. Even though I was little, it was still hard. Somehow I forgot about that and focused on Laurel.

The scariest thing for me was picking in which High School do I want to go. And I knew, deep in my heart that me and Laurel won't go to the same school. It was sad, really sad. I just knew that we won't see each other every day, or even once in a month. She was my best friend, she still is and I would not forget her, not now or ever. She was always there for me when I needed someone by my side, she was my shoulder when I cried, she was my everything.

The time of High School came faster than I thought it would. I was scared. I only knew one girl and I was scared that I will only stick to her and no one else. Sooner than I expected, she left me alone. I was lonely at school and was scared that I am rejected from everyone else. Then a girl came to me and we started talking. We somehow became really good friends and then the girl who left me alone came back to me. Then my popularity in school grew and I knew everyone, and almost everyone knew me. I was 'popular' kid. But in some way people only knew me because I was making fun of myself. High School days were finally over and I didn't want to go to college, yet, so I decided to just stay with my mom and stepdad.

Here I am now. In my room writing this book, that probably no one will read. But I just need to write down everything that I have in my mind lately. There is a lot more to talk about than just this little part. Now, I'm going to sleep. Good night world. :)