9 years old .
" Rei get up babygirl " A soft , angelic voice whispered into my ears , causing me to close my eyes as tight as I could .
" Reign I know you hear me little girl " She repeated , yanking my covers from over my tiny , frail , malnourished body . I shot up with tears in the brim of my eyes knowingly of what was going to take place .
" Get up baby , Daddy's made at mommy and he wants you to fix it for me , okay ? get up so I can get you pretty like mama " My mom said , grabbing my small wrist leading me out of the bed .
" I don't want to do this again , you said that was the last time mama " I said pulling away from her grasp , with a face full of tears I look at her with pleading eyes .
" Look her little bitch I know what i said but i'm telling you now , get your ass up to this bathroom so I can get your ugly ass ready " She angrily spat , pulling me into the bathroom where she roughly washed my face and washed me up . She sat me onto the cold , iron stool and put my hair in curls and coated my small , plumped lips in Red lipstick . She took my That's So Raven pajama onesie off and threw it on the floor & replaced them with a familiar tight Red Betty Boop half tank top and a pair of black silk shorts that was too small for me and fitted tight. She sprayed me with the scent I grew to hate , " Pink Lavender " perfume .
" Now , you look beautiful my dear . You go in your daddy's room and tell him how sorry mommy is and make me proud , you're a woman and you have to do what you gotta do " She gave me the speech she always gave when she forced me too do foul things like this . I was only 9 but I knew this wasn't right , it didn't feel right , but I didn't completely understand this . My mother trailed behind me in the dark hallway to the black , cracked door where you can hear my father cursing and yelling with a cigarette in his mouth .
" Nina your have to be the stupidest bitch i've ever met , to think I married your ugly fat ass " I heard my father say , drunkly. My mom shoved me into the room where he was and he stopped and looked at me with low , beady black eyes & a crooked smile presented on his caramel skin . I heard his footsteps get closer to where I was standing and my heart racing at every step he took. He grabbed my chin and made me look into the face i've grown to hate , his salt and peppered beard , those thick eyebrows and slicked back black hair . I closed my eyes , breathing heavily as I felt him lean into my small frame and placed a rough kiss against my lips , I tried to refrain the disgust in liquid form that was tempted to exit mouth .
" Mmmm , papí little girl , you're so beautiful , how about you take off those clothes for me and lay in daddy's bed for me " He said looking at me with hunger in his eyes . From there he tainted my body with his acidic touch and began doing what he started for years more . My innocence washed away early with the waves .
