A pyschopathic diary

Cold

    Alexis in the middle of a room, it's very warm in the room. But she just feels cold. Cold from the people around here, from the people she lost, from thedarkness in her heart

She wanders around and thinks for herself

"What if everyone died in here, would it change anything, what would she feel"

Then she heard someone call out her name fromanother room, when she came in everything went black. 

She just heard footsteps,they were too many for one person so something will happen. At first shethought it was her best friend Kevin. But she noticed that the steps was louderthan his.

She thought, "What will happen, what do they want me to do, why arethey doing this, who is this. All the thoughts and no answer what should shedo.

She finally adapted to the dark andshe saw two or three human figures standing there in the dark quiet andwhispering to each other, she couldn't hear what they said because of the loudmusic in the background.

She finally realized what they were going to do. She was once part of this group, three girls: Amanda, Kelsey and Monika. The group who was made by her and Monika. Later Kelsey and Amanda joined, then theycontinued with what they were doing, what they did to girls them didn't like andboys who stood in their way.

"God, hope not Kevin comes in"

Alex was nothing but a girl who was lonely andan outsider, she was popular once upon a time but not anymore. She was affectedby Depression, Psychopathy and sociopathy. Her mom and father died at an earlyage and she transfer families since then. She has always been alone and never got any real friends except Kevin, her best gay friend. Kevin was almostfriends with everyone at the school and everyone knew he was gay, but only he knew I was too.

 Monika...Her first kiss and first girlfriend until she realized what she and Monika had beendoing to other girls like Amanda and Kelsey, they liked what they were doing sothey became victims many times more than any other girls in the entire school. 

Her dreaming was intrupted when Alex was knocked out. 

When she woke up she couldn't see anything but black 

She started dreaming again 

Alex was in Monika's group until she found out Monika had been in a relationship with both Amanda and Kelsey since they joined. Alex became angry and never talked to Monika again, but with a broken heart she still had feelings for her.She was 14 when she broke up with Monika, 

That was 3 years ago, has she beenthinking about me in three years or is it just now that she realized she had done wrong. Because that's too late to start up their relationship again, she buriedthat with the stupidity she felt when she was 15. So now in 3rd  yearin high school she was alone.