A Midsummer Romance

Chapter 1

Stupid
That's what I am, fucking stupid. How is it I always put myself in a situation where I feel unimportant.
Wait, I forgot you have no idea what happened.
    To give you a quick overview, my friends are shitty. I always give more than I get when it comes to relationships. If someone needed something from me I would drop whatever I'm doing to help, but what do I get in return? I'm the friend who gets left if there isn't enough room or the one who people make fun of. I get that I try too hard sometimes, but it's because all of my friendships in the past have been me having to put in effort for anything to ever happen. I finally had a solid few people who I knew I could count on and then I left for college. I know I still have them, but it's not the same being hours apart.
    I thought that going to college would make me feel free and like I could be myself, but because of the friends I made I can't be. I'm the type of person who doesn't know how to switch friend groups either, like do I send them a break up text?
"Hey, you're all awful people, so I have new friends. Go fuck yourselves?"
    No because that just won't work.
Sometimes I wish I was more confrontational than I am. I'm an Aries for fucks sake, I need to grow a pair and just put people in their place. Like how is it possible I ALWAYS get the short end of the stick. "Oh you think that guy is cute Juliet?" It's almost as if me saying yes makes them go for them. Literally anytime I like a guy at least one of my friends goes for them. I get that I'm not as skinny as the rest of my friends, but does that mean that they can act like I will never find someone who is attracted to me? How is it my name is Juliet, but I can't find love? Where is my Romeo?
On top of all that, there's this one guy in the group, Levi. He's a complete asshole. We have never gotten along bc all he does is make fun of me, which leads to everyone laughing. I already get isolated from the rest of the group and he just adds to it.