My Past Was Meant To Be Hidden

Hurt, Frozen and Empty

I ran down the stairs, Bellamy and sandy waited to say goodbye and I drove me, Sebastian and ruby to school, when me and Sebastian got out everyone stared at me, after a few seconds two girly voices screamed my name with happiness, I smiled at Jonah and scarlet and they both ran towards em and squished me in a hug, Jonah spoke first

"Omg god girl what happened?"

"Yeah your skinnier then a twig?"

"And you have been gone a whole year!"

"And no one would tell us anything!" I sighed

"I'm okay and back and hungry so don't worry guys" they both pouted, Jonah spoke

"But your our bestie and we missed you, also we was worried as hell" Scarlett nodded agreeing with him

"It doesn't matter, I'm back now" they nodded letting it go Xavior smiled kindly

"Glad your back, my brother from another mother has been so down lately, starting to think I might after ditch him" he chuckled as Sebastian punished him playfully in the arm, they started talking about random stuff I wasn't interested in, I turned to see James, Jake and Nate behind me with smiled on there face, they spoke at the same time

"Babe your back"

"Everyone missed you"

"Girl I knew you was too tough to die" I smiled, then looked at the floor as I spoke

"Is drake in?" They nodded, I sighed

"I can't deal with him right know could you guys tell him to back off please?" They nodded as we walked to class.

maths, I hate this class, to be honest it brings back memory's of the first day, I was daydreaming when sir fell asleep, a shadow over my table made me jump and look up, Drake was looking at me with a frown on his face,I glanced at Nate and James who were glaring at Drake, I looked back at him and sighed

"Can I help you?" He sat down next to me and spoke

"Yeah you can, you can listen to what I have to say" I rolled my eyes

"You have a few minutes"

"You know I did look for you, I looked at all the top people who wanted to get back at our gang, Trey he wasn't one of them, thats why we never looked, after a few months I started to get depressed, I mean I couldn't find you I was slowly giving up, I thought if I couldn't find you then they have already killed you, I'm sorry I gave up" I laughed with no emotion and stood, I knew everyone was listening but at the moment I didn't care

"Your sorry? It's your fault he took me in the first place and you know what? Sorry isn't enough for what I went threw!" I walked out with him, Nate and James following

"Cass!" I turned and glared pushing him into the lockers

"No don't call me that, you don't deserve to call me that only my mother does! My mom, Sebastian and ruby!" He pushed me back

"Stop being childish Ella!"

"Childish? Yeah because being kidnapped is childish" I shouted which caused him to shout

"Your overreacting about it" I slapped him

"No drake! You don't know nothing about what happened!"

"Then tell me!"

"Do you really think you deserve to know!" He sighed and pulled me into his arms but I pushed him away knowing a tear was rolling down my face

"You know nothing" I whispered and walked towards the cafeteria doors with Nate and James quietly following me.

I didn't speak the whole time, I would fake smile or nod when someone asked me some thing, or asked if I was okay, Jonah kept watching me closely, but I shrugged it off, Sebastian was sitting next to me almost protectively, like he thought no harm could come to me near him, but it's to late, but he doesn't know that, non of them do, they only know some of it.

I just finished having dinner and was walking to my bed, when the door went I ignored it knowing Sebastian would get it, I laid down with my head at he bottom of the bed and my feet at the top, my door slowly opened and the person sat next to me in the same position

"Ella-bella" he spoke softly

"Yeah Jonah?"

"Do you want to talk about it?" I felt some tears roll down my face

"Not really" he waited a couple of seconds then I started talking him again only giving some details

"Jonah it was horrible, I don't eat a lot but they practically starved us so we had no energy to fight back, that's when it got worse, after I was just thinking about giving up, I fought back because I knew I was going to die anyway, Trey he hurt me, I had to do it to save us, I couldn't take it anymore" I sobbed

"Do what Ella?" He spoke as if I was fragile, I guess I am but I don't like feeling like this

"I managed to get a gun Jonah, I had to, I ... I k-ki-killed h-him" I started crying and he hugged me and started saying soothing words as he tightened his arms around me

"It's okay Ella-bella, you did it because you had to no one will judge you for that, I don't care how you did it, I'm glad your back, even if you are broken, I love you so much my amazing twin" I giggled and rested my head on his chest, he spoke again

"What did he do to you?" I gulped and flinched as the memory's played along in my head like a movie but I was the main character

"Nothing Jonah nothing" he sighed put kissed my cheek

"Go sleep Ella-bella"

"Night Jonah"

"Night Ella"