Without you I'm lost

Please don't go

                    20 minutes later
Richelle's PoV
I'm at home now and as soon as I get in I hear my dad shouting "WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN"I jumped because even though I'm used to it it still scares me because I know what's coming after I go to answer but instead I feel a hand colliding with my face"YOUR NOT ALLOWED TO SPEAK YOU LITTLE SLUT,WHY THE HELL DO I EVEN KEEP YOU YOUR MUM SHOULD HAVE TOOK YOU WITH HER WHEN SHE LEFT,I TOLD HER I DIDN'T WANT THE BASTARD  KID,WHY DONT YOU DO US ALL A FAVOUR AND KILL YOURSELF" he then threw a bag of razors and pills at me. Should I listen to him and kill my self, it would make everyone else happy because I'm just a burden. I was about to run upstairs and then I felt something sharp hit my arm I look down and see a piece of broken glass stuck in my arm instead of it hurting I felt numb like I was just dead and I can't feel pain at first it hurt but now it's soothing. I Rip the glass out and run upstairs. I know that nobody wants me here so why not die. I open the pill bottle when I remember that I need to make a suicide note.

To TNS
Hey it's Richelle by the time you get this not I will already be dead, whatever you do don't act like you care because I don't need you caring about me because I stoped caring a long time ago, I have personal letter for you lower in the list,

To Summer

I hope you know that I don't hate you I never did I was just jealous that you were a better dancer then me, I've tried to be best my whole life and I guess I'm just trying to say that I didn't mean to hurt you all the time and be rude I hope you will forgive me

To Lily
I don't hate you either even tho you always got what you wanted your a nice girl that's really all I have to say to you

To Henry
I will always remember you, because you knew how to make me laugh and not stress about stuff I hope you can forgive me

To Kingston
I have the same to say to you as I did Henry I'm glad that we met please forgive me

To Jacquie
Hey we use to be close and then we just fell apart I miss you and please forgive me

I'm sorry to everyone else but I just don't have the time to write the rest I have to text Lola before I die

Love Richelle xx

Okay now I have to text Lola

To Lola
Hey I hope your not mad at me but I'm done with everything. I'm done with talking and walking and breathing I'm just done I'm so sorry Lola you were my best friend and my only friend and I know I was yours so please forgive me for this but I'm doing it, I'm going to kill myself
From Richelle

And send
Now I have to die as quick as I can so I grab the razors and find the sharpest one I cut lines across both of my arms and start to bleed out, i then just swallow the whole tub of pills for a quicker death...

Lola's PoV

I was lay on my bed thinking about how much I miss the next step when I get a text from Richelle it said
To Lola
Hey I hope your not mad at me but I'm done with everything. I'm done with talking and walking and breathing I'm just done I'm so sorry Lola you were my best friend and my only friend and I know I was yours so please forgive me for this but I'm doing it, I'm going to kill myself
From Richelle

I quickly got up from my bed and drove to tns because I know the have a late praion tonight and I need there help to save Richelle.

(5 minutes later)

Emily's PoV
We were just going over the regionals routine when Lola ran in the studio A
And she said five words" can you help me please" I nod yes.

Lola's PoV

Emily nods yes so I continue " we need to save Richelle" Skylar looked confused but Noah had a look of 'please say she didnt'
I look at Noah and ask "Noah do you know what's happening?"Noah looked at me and nodded he head and replied with" did Richelle try to kill herself again" the silence after that was almost to quiet like it was so wierd to hear them all quiet but I guess that's what happens when you realise that your friends might not live till tomorrow...

Hey guys thanks for reading the first chapter this is a very graphic book so sorry if you didn't like it. This book is trying to point out that even if someones life seems like the perfect fairy tale that person could be loosing a fight with herself. We all have things that we don't like about
ourselves and we want to change them about us but please anyone who is suicidal please remember you are loved. And before my rant goes on to long I just wanted to tell you why I have been away.

I have this app called tik tok and my old account that has memories that is of me growing up from 8 and it really upset me because it deleted its self and most people probably think'why are you crying over a account' but I was because it has memories from my last day of primary school to my first day of high school and I met lots of people on there and It really upset me but I'm back now and I will be posting more often I hope you like this book because I have been working on it for a few days.
None of this is edited and I wrote it at 00:59
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