Summing up

2017

This was the start of it all. I didn't feel much. I never do. With my head down low facing the concrete flooring I walk towards the familiar stairs , other students swarming in. I tried to avoid as many people possible. Without hesitation I moved up the hall with zero expectations of a good year. My best friend was in a different class and I was in a class full of strangers.

I blindly look for my class' tag. I've got to admit , I was lost.When I found my class, I awkwardly sat down with a bag larger then myself.

You see, I didn't look that pleasant. My hair was always a mess. Dark circles , fat physique. Might I add I was overweight. I never really thought about it though , except for my excessive amount of body hair which I always got teased about.

We had a very short assembly in whish was so generic. Every year same things. Rules , dengue , blah blah blah. By the time we reached class , I was already sure I was going to be lonely. Everyone had at least 1 friend who they were talking to. Me? Awkwardly acting like I'm fine.

I didn't really hear the teacher. I was just thinking about how I was surely going to dread this whole year. By the time I realised what was going on , most of the class was already seated, leaving me and a small group of others. The teacher assigned us to our sits.

I don't clearly remember much.We wrote down our ambitions and I wrote down doctor.Why? I never really wanted to be a doctor. I feel like I don't want to be responsible for someone's death.I just wrote it down because my mom always told me to be one. Then ,we were told to introduced ourselves. I waited for my turn patiently , watching the others introduce themselves. Not gonna lie , I admit to sniggering to some of them because I was just such a bitch that thought I was better.Then, came my turn.

"Hello my name is Lut <Pretend this js my actual name, not ready to be sued> I don't have interest in anything to be honest. But I like playing Call of Duty and Watchdogs in my spare time." At that , I heard a few of the boys mocking me. The one I remember most was from the class' bastard , Andre. No offence he's nice when you treat him like he's a king but generally he's just a cock sucking whore. Back to what I was saying , I heard him say , "You sure not?! Girl play game meh?". At that I just kept silent.