I forgot he wasn't there when I mentioned that I was a virgin.
"nope"
"not even—"
"nope" I cut him off
"interesting. anyways back to you guys. so like why's he upset?"
"because I was apparently throwing myself onto him last night and to finally get me to go to sleep he said he had to suck on my nipples. so I said that was still rape which kinda triggered him I guess. he said I should be thanking him for taking care of me and saying sorry for how I acted"
"not taking sides here, but take this from someone who gets wasted way too often. if you have someone who takes care of you while you're in that state, cherish them forever. you won't find much people who will be willing to deal with a drunk person, friend or maybe even family member. now I'm exhausted so I'm gonna take a nap"
He stripped out of his clothes then got right into bed. I on the other hand sat on my bed for a few minutes just thinking about the whole situation before getting up to go shower.
⏩
"Cai you need to apologize to him" Taylor said through the phone
I'm sitting in the dining hall eating dinner alone since Leigh's still asleep and I practically ended the only other friendship I have. So I decided to update Taylor while eating.
"but he sucked on my nipples"
"and I bet you enjoyed it. look he could've went further but he didn't, that's what matters. nobody wants to hear that they're a rapist, especially not after he left a party to make sure you got back to your room safely. and not only that but he stayed with you till you fell asleep. I'm glad all he did was suck your nipples. putting a drunk person to sleep is not easy unless they're dead—not literally"
"ugh I know. I felt bad right after he got up and left. I don't know what's wrong with me. last night I'm practically begging for us to be friends again then this morning I accuse him of something he didn't do. he's not gonna want anything to do with me now. it's been a week and look how much we've gone through"
"nah. you have it easier actually. he likes you, and because of that he'll be more willing to accept your apology, you just have to be willing to give it. but Cai..."
"yeah"
"how do you feel about him? honestly. because this time, unless you're offering something I don't see it going anywhere. you need to compromise"
"Tay it's no secret that I like him. my only concern is getting hurt"
"but nobody's saying go fuck him or even be in a relationship with him. just let him take you on a date or something. get to know each other on a deeper level"
"exactly, so why can't we do that as friends? you and I know everything about each other, and we hang out all the time. I don't get it"
"Caiah I can't with you anymore. you just gotta figure this out on your own. He likes you and you like him. naturally people who like each other try and see where that attraction can go. whether it turns into something bigger or goes no where. it won't be discovered unless you try. now I gotta go, I'm tired of your complicated life. I have enough on my plate as it is"
"Thanks Tay. I love you"
"I love you too, let me know how that works out" He said before hanging up
He's right...I hate that he's always right. but maybe I am being too hard on myself. maybe I should give him a chance, at least just to prove himself.
I unlocked my phone then went to DM him asking if he was available to meet. I sat there staring at the message waiting for a response which I eventually gave up on. Maybe I really pushed it this time.
I got up with my tray and headed towards the dish room. on my way out I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket got me excited a bit, as well as a little nervous too.
I dropped my tray off then rushed to check my phone only to be disappointed when I saw it was a text from Storm telling me to call her when I'm free.
I sighed then put my phone away before making my way out of the dining hall. I opened the door and was about to walk out when I was stopped by this dark skinned boy standing on the other side.
"my fault" He said with a dimpled smile
"no problem" I said when continued to walk past him
I was about to keep walking when I noticed that Masai was right behind him. He had his phone to his ear and looked kind've angry. I didn't know whether to interrupt or not but it was now or ever.
"Masai" I said turning around and going back up to him to tap him
He turned around and looked at me but didn't say anything.
"can we talk?" I asked even though he was on the phone
He just stared at me and continued to listen to what was being said through the phone. The dark skinned boy who I was about to bump into was now standing behind him as well and was waiting I guess.
"yeah ma I'll call you back later..." He said then hung up
ooo, he's brave.
"what's up?" He asked
"I texted you..."
"I was on the phone" He said sarcastically while raising up his phone
"yeah I see. can we talk though?"
"we're talking right now aren't we?"
He's upset obviously and he has every right to be. maybe he just needs some time to cool off.
"uh—never mind. I'll see you later" I said then turned to leave
I was kind of expecting to be stopped and chased down but nope. He let me continue walking away all the way till I got to my hall. I guess that's what I get for letting him walk away this morning. what goes around comes around.
ओह! यह छवि हमारे सामग्री दिशानिर्देशों का पालन नहीं करती है। प्रकाशन जारी रखने के लिए, कृपया इसे हटा दें या कोई भिन्न छवि अपलोड करें।
