If I Could Tell Them....

Chapter 1

It was a normal November day. I had woken up to my alarm, blaring the selected ringtone for it which was Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance. I got up from my bed to take a shower, hoping it would take the sleepiness out of my eyes. I grabbed my towel and my clothes for day. I grabbed my Fall Out Boy red tee and some black jean and layed out my clothes on my bed. I sighed. "I just wanna stay home. Fuck school in all its shittiness." I grumbled softly. I grabbed my towel and went to the bathroom. I turned on the water for the shower. Once it was at a decent temperature, I took off my clothes, throwing them somewhere in the bathroom and stepped in. I just stood there as water hit my brown hair repeatedly. I felt dead. My usually light brown eyes were just dull.

Almost forgot to introduce myself. I'm Cecilia, I'm 15 years old and in my second year of high school and I'm depressed as fuck. The reason? Simple. I'm big lesbian in a homophobic family. OH HOW GREAT LIFE FUCKING IS! But don't worry. This isn't about a stereotypical story where the main character is depressed and attempts suicide for their crush. No, I'm not all about that shit. I've already attempted so many times at this point I've given up.

Anyway, I heard a light knock on the door. "Ceci, I need to pee, hurry uuuppp." My little brother groaned. I finish my shower and wrap the towel around my body and walk out of the bathroom.

My brother ran in, pushing me out of the way. I sigh and walk back to my room. As I got dressed, I could hear my mother's alarm going off. It wasn't likely she was gonna actually get up on her own. After I'm done I check the time. '6:20, huh? I still got time.' I lay down and slowing slip into my subconscious once again.

~At 7:15 am~

I jolt awake to someone shaking me. "Ceci, time for school!" I rub my eyes to see my mom looking down on me. I sit up and just nod. She nods back and walks out my room. I sigh. Depression is a bitch. I get up and grab my huge, light red Canada sweater I got for Christmas. I feel a tiny smile creep onto my face. I love Canada. Not just Canada, I love countries in general. Damn you hetalia. You cursed me with happiness. And gayness but whatever.

"You're not seriously wearing that today?" My mom looks annoyed. Not surprised. She's doesn't like how I dress. I shrugged "Yeah." She sighs exasperately. "Whatever let's go." "Actually, mom i was uh thinking I could WALK to school." My mom turned, shocked. "What?! Why?! So you could have a better chance of skipping?" Duh. "No mom I need the exercise especially after what the doctor said." I replied half lying. That was true but I could skip more easily. "...Fine but you better go to school." Mom stared up at me with a stern look. "Yes ma'am." I said as I gave my baby sister a kiss. I began walking in the direction school was. I pulled out my headphones and put on some music to calm my nerves. "Wow very relaxing." I turned to see my friend Lesly. "Heh yeah very relaxing." I chuckled. "Yeah loud screaming is sooo relaxing." Lesly said sarcastically. I nodded. She just laughed slightly and rolled her eyes. We were surrounded by comfortable slience.

I groaned as I saw the school come into view. I stand there looking at the school for a solid minute before I turned around to leave. "Nope not today." I said as I began walking away. Lesly already walked in. I CAN ESCAPE- "UH I THINK NOT BITCH! YOU BETTER BACK THE FUCK UP OR YOU'RE GONNA GET SMACKED THE FUCK UP!" SON OF A BITCH?! I groan as I turn around to meet the eyes of my best friend, Gabby. "Whhhyyyyyyyyyyy. I don't wanna goooooooooooo." I whined walking towards her. "Man I don't a fuck. If I have to suffer, you have to suffer too." I rolled my eyes. Deciding I was too tired to argue, I just walked towards her then she began dragging me in by the wrist. As soon as we walk in she went to her locker. I started heading towards my locker too. I accidentally bump into someone. "Oh sorry-" "Watch where your going freak." I roll my eyes. foR FUCKS SAKE, ITS TOO FUCKING EARLY FOR THIS SHIT! I looked up with an annoyed look plastered on my face to see the fucking bitch. My heart pounded but luckily my expression was unwavering. Delilah. My fucking bully. "Look I said sorry." "I don't give a shit you little whor-" "Uh dafuq you just say bitch." Gabby said looking at the bitch in front of me. She immeditately stopped glaring at me and turned to Gabby with a fake smile on her donkey looking ass face.

"Oh hey Gabby!" Delilah exclaimed. I rolled my eyes. Stupid bitch.

Gabby stood there looking at her in a mix of disgust and confusion. She glanced at me to make sure I wasn't injured then looked back at her. "What?" Delilah tilted her head in confusion. She looked back me the pointed at me. At this point there was a huge crowd seeing what's going on.

"What you actually care about this freakish loser?!" She said laughing. She sneered at me "You'll never be anyone and nobody will ever love you." "Huh guess I'm nobody." We looked up to see my othe best friend Jose glaring at her.

She rolled her eyes. "Oh Jose everyone knows you actually mean something, unlike this." Delilah exclaimed, pointing at me. Jose looked offend in his sassy way. "Bitch dafuq you think you calling a this you fucking hoe ass bitch." He yelled.

She looked shocked. "This inhuman thing is a nuisance to us all and she should kill herself-" Delilah got out punched in her jaw. I looked shocked to see Gabby ready to basically knock this bitches lights out.

The crowd went nuts, everyone screaming 'kick her ass' or 'fight back Delilah'. I just stood there and stared as my best friend is in a fist fight with my bully.

Suddenly I feel 2 arms snake around my arms and pulled to someone's chest. I looked up to see Jose had gotten me away from the fight. He spun me around in a quick motion. "You didn't get hurt?" I just shook my head.

Then our attention went back to Gabby who was currently punching Delilah in the tits.

Jose and I held back our laughter. Then a teacher had intervened and stopped the fight. She grabbed all four of us to the office.

Now I'm stuck in the principal's office because I'm the cause the fight. I don't really know why Jose's in the office though. Apparently he wanted to talk to Gabby and Delilah first then to Jose and I.

"Do you know why you're here?" The principal asked. We shrugged. Like hell if I know why you want to talk to me. "Well the fight between Delilah and Gabriella was pretty serious." We nodded. Duh our best friend beat the shit outta someone dipshit! "And there are serious consequences to this. All I want to know is what happened?" I sat in chair, not moving a muscle. Jose was about to say something but I cut him off.

"Gabby had defended herself because of Delilah's words and actions." I said quickly. Jose gave me a look full of confusion and horror. "Did you happen to hear what Delilah had said?" I shook my head and glanced at Jose, hoping he would go along with it. He glared at me with a look that said "I don't like what you're doing but I'll go along with it."

"Hmm okay. You're dismissed." We walked out of his office and went to the nurse to check on Gabby.

"Hey dude, how you feeling?" I asked. She stared at us for a bit. "....I'm hungry." I chuckled. "Glad to see you're fine." I heard Delilah scoff. I rolled my eyes and ignored her. "Well we should get going." Jose said. Gabby nodded. "I finna be here all day." "Oof. Ight, I'll buy you lunch." She perked up. "Food?" I nodded.

We left the nurse and immediately Jose grabbed my arm. He looked pissed.

"Why didn't you tell him what she's beem doing to you?!" He asked, furiously. I ran a hand through my hair. Shit. "I-I didn't- I don't.." I sighed. "I just don't want drama, dude." He looked confused. "If she bullying you thats ALREADY STARTING DRAMA CECI!" He yelled. "WELL I DONT WANT MORE DRAMA?! I GET ENOUGH AT HOME ALREADY!?" I feel myself start shaking, anxiety rushing through me. My vision became blurry and my legs were about give out. Jose immeditately hugged and telling me to do breathing exercises.

What a great way to start my day.